I can't be pregnant. I don't want to be pregnant. Maybe it's a false positive like last time.
I got paranoid because I was scared that this was Curtis' baby, but then I remembered that he...pulled out. I shuddered as that day replayed in my head, so I quickly snapped out of it.
I put the box back in the drawer and wrapped the test in some tissue before throwing it in the trash. Can't risk Blake seeing that.
I washed my hands and went downstairs so I could call my doctor. I wanted to make sure I was actually pregnant before driving myself insane.
After I got off the phone, I sat on the couch with Chaney & Bailey and waited for Blake to come back, which wasn't long. I went in the kitchen and he brought Chick Fil A, my favorite.
"How did you know I wanted Chick Fil A?" I asked.
"I told you I knew what you wanted," he said, "and I brought you some ice cream."
He is too good to me.
I couldn't help but think about how much I wanna tell him, but I didn't want him to get excited because I know he will.
I didn't realize I blanked out until I heard him calling me.
"Are you alright?" he asked.
He looked at me skeptically, but I ignored it. I tried to act as normal as possible and luckily for me, he didn't suspect a thing.
I really hope I'm not pregnant.
The next day...
My doctor's appointment is today and I'm a nervous wreck. I went by myself because I didn't want anyone to know what's happening.
I anxiously sat in the waiting room, shaking my leg nervously.
"Ms. Smalls?" the nurse called.
And, here we go.
"So, what brings you here today?" my doctor asks.
"I think I might be pregnant, but I just want to be 100% positive."
"Okay then. If you could just lie down."
I lied back and she lifted my shirt to put the gel on my stomach. She moved the wand around and when I looked up at the screen, I saw it.
"Well, Briana, it looks like you are in fact pregnant. You're about five weeks," she smiled, "congratulations!"
"Would you like a picture of the sonogram?" she asked.
"Sure, why not?"
She wiped the gel off my stomach and went to go get the picture. When she came back, she told me when my next appointment is and I went back home.
I sat at the island in the kitchen, looking at the picture and I felt a tear trickle down my face. I don't even know why I'm crying. I'm lying - I know exactly why. I still don't want kids, but I know Blake does and what kinda fiancé would I be if I took that away from him? I then started thinking about the first time I got pregnant and that only made me cry harder.
I pulled myself together and thought about how to tell Blake. I got it. I put the picture in my purse and went to the store.
I decided to make Blake a cake. Once I took it out the oven and let it cool, I put the icing on. I wrote "Hi Daddy" on the cake and propped the picture up against the cake stand. When I heard Blake walk in, I sprinted upstairs to the bedroom.
When I walked in the house, it smelled like someone was baking.
She didn't answer, so I went in the kitchen and there was a cake sitting on the counter.
"Hi Daddy?" I read out loud.
I looked down under the cake stand and there was a picture of a sonogram propped up against it. I stared at it for a while before a smile spread across my face.
I went in the living room and the den, but she wasn't there. I went up to the bedroom and she was sitting on the bed, looking down and playing with her fingers.
I walked over to the bed and sat with her. She looked at the picture then looked at me.
"So is this why you were acting so strange yesterday?" I asked.
"I'm assuming you're not happy about it," I said.
"I wish I could say I am, but I'm not," she cried, "I don't know how to take care of a baby and what if I lose this one? I can't go through that again and I can't have you hate me for losing your child."
She was pretty hysterical and there weren't really any breaks as she spoke.
"Listen, if you do lose the baby, we will get through it. I could never hate you for something you have no control over. As for you not knowing how to take care of a child, you used to take care of Ford when he was a baby."
"Yeah, but that was only on the weekends."
"And you did perfectly fine. Believe me baby, you're gonna be okay."
She smiled a little and wiped her eyes. She curled up in my lap and put her head on my shoulder.
"I know you're pretty emotional right now, but I'm really happy," I said.
She lifted her head to look me in the eyes and smiled, "I know you are, babe."
I kissed her forehead and she wrapped her arms around my neck to hug me.
I can't believe we're gonna have a baby.
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