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I'm Here For You~Mammon x suicidal reader

Contains Self-harm, blood, cursing. <<<<if you are sensitive to any of these topics this one is not for you, read at your own risk~

The sound of water rushing out of the tap accompanied you while the smell of blood was present. It made you want to vomit yet the sharp blade was pressed against your skin once again.

Your hand shook, hesitantly holding the razor closer towards your wrist. The pain from the last cut was still burning, making your eyes water. With tears cascading down your cheek, feeling the nostalgic searing pain brush against your flesh. 

Clenching your eyes you felt the blood ooze off of your arm and into the sink. Staining the white porcelain a deep crimson. The razor fell from your hands and clattered to the floor. Your head was spinning and stared at your wrist wondering how you came to be like this.

How pathetic, look at you. snarled a voice at that back of your head.

Useless, who needs you? 

Those boys don't deserve you to be down here, Mammon doesn't need you either!

You don't deserve him.

This is all your fault, bitch.

"S-shut u-up," You whispered, crying uncontrollably.

You wanted this voice out of your head and gone. But you couldn't.

 Tears mixed into the blood as you buried your face into your hands. The tangy metallic smell of blood greeted you once more, making you nauseous.

 More tears fell, your body shook. Your knees buckled and you fell to the bathroom floor. The sight of the razor made your heartthrob while it sat a meters away from you on the tiled floor.

"S-shit," 

Your hand crept over to the razor and sliced it against your flesh on top of the last one. The pain grabbed onto you like a pair of hands throttling you, unyielding. Your nose crinkled and suddenly you heard your D.D.D go off.

Still, on the floor, you didn't bother to glance at it. Blood was now on the floor, splattered over the tiles. Reaching out to the sink, you lifted yourself up. 

What you saw was a burden, a girl who didn't deserve anything. Your eyes were red and puffy from crying as well as your blood now mixing into the running water. 

All of a sudden you heard your bedroom door open, and footsteps.

"Y/N~ It's time for dinner~ THE Mammon is here!" You hear the demon say enthusiastically. "You didn't respond to my text so decided to come over," his voice now was closer.

Fuck.

You scrambled, panic struck over your face. The water swirled down and you wiped off the excess blood anywhere to be seen on the sink. The bathroom door was semi ajar, and it clearly told Mammon that you were inside. You couldn't hide.

 As soon as Mammon came in his eyes averted to the blood on the floor and razor. He stared back up at your tear struck face and your soaked sleeve. He walked up to you grabbing you into his arms.

"Hey, Y/N why," He asks gently, holding your head closer to his chest. His other arm was wrapped against your torso, holding you tightly. "You can tell me, right? I'm here for you,"

Your hands laid against his chest, already staining his top with blood. Mammon didn't care, more tears threatened to fall but the voice in your head caught you once more.

"Do you not trust me Y/N?" He asks, slowly.

Your shoulder slumped and you started breathing unevenly.

Useless attention seeker. 

Go rot in a hole.

You don't need this.

"I-I do, but w-why would you care f-for a girl like me, after knowing what I-O did?" You sobbed, slowly inching away from his hug. More of your blood spilt onto the floor.

But Mammon didn't allow you to escape. He held you tighter against him burying hid his head in the nook of your shoulder. In shock, your eyes widen feeling the warmth pressed against you.

"It's because I love you Y/N and I won't let you go- no matter what,"

Hey!

This is for @edgyDaemon I hope you like it ^^

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