i found out why you didn't want this anymore. why you didn't want us anymore.
months ago, when i myself wasn't sure whether to lead this on, you begged me to stay. you said you needed me in your life. you said i was so fucking important to you.
but then i realized. you had met someone else. and that someone else is who you want to be with. they're the one you have feelings for and they're the one you want to spend forever with.
it wasn't me. it has never been me, and it will never be me.
how could i believe that i was the one you wanted? you said you didn't have feelings for me, and i didn't believe you. it is all my fault. if i only believed you and left when you said it.
now this emptiness, this numbness and this senseless has all been created by me. no one's to blame but myself.
i never realized that i have always been your rebound. nothing more and nothing less.
i gave you everything i had, and now that you're gone, i have nothing left.
i am empty and i am alone.
how long can i live this life anymore?
