The Trained Wife [Completed]

Kabanata 19

I thought there's nothing more painful than losing Nanay Ising. I thought I'm already over with too much pain, but I guess there's more to come. Wala ng luha pang lumabas mula sa aking mga mata. I just felt numb about it. But I can't deny the fact that I'm still trusting the same person. Yes I've heard it right. I've seen it right through my naked eyes. It happened in front of me. But when he texted me I should trust him. I'm here, with all honesty, is very willing to continue trusting him.

He just used me to get even, that thought keeps on running inside my mind. Kaya ba hindi niya nasabi sa akin na alam niyang ako si Rana? I was lying to him the whole time and he knew already, but chose to keep his mouth shut because he already had this plan to have his own revenge on me with Immaculee. If it's the truth, I still can't blame him, I'm at fault too. That's probably the reason why I can still trust him and if I need a reason deeper than that, that is because I am in love with him, I love him.

Napatingin ako sa bintana ng kotse, kasabay nito ang pagbagsak ng ulan. Maybe the heaven is crying for me because I can't even tear up right now. Maybe the heaven knows what I really feel. Na oo, kahit namanhid na ako ngayon, I am still hurting inside. Kahit may tiwala pa rin ako sa kanya, masakit pa rin. I felt betrayed too, but I can't go mad, why? Because I've betrayed him in the first place. I lied to him too.

Nilapat ko ang mga daliri sa bintana habang patuloy sa pagbagsak ang ulan. I didn't know I fell asleep. Nagising na lamang ako nang huminto na ang kotse. I'm not sure how long it stayed in front of our house, kina Mommy Eli. I thought Kal's bodyguard would bring me to Kal's house but I am here instead. I believe this is because of Kal's order.

"Thank you." I said, tumango at nagpaalam na sa akin ang bodyguard bago ako pagbuksan ng gate ng guard nitong bahay nila Mommy Eli.

Muntik na akong matumba sa mahigpit na salubong na pagyakap sa akin ni Mommy Eli. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko, if earlier I'm not feeling anything, but now I feel like my heart long for something I can't even tell. Nagulat din ako sa pagyakap ni daddy Eris sa akin. Nanginginig ang balikat ni Mommy Eli nang humiwalay siya sa pagkakayakap sa akin. She showed me a ring.

She's crying so hard while smiling. Hindi ko maintindihan pero nagkaroon ako ng ideya sa paraan nang paghawak niya sa akin. May kung anong humaplos sa puso ko.

Natigilan ako. That ring was the same ring Nanay Ising gave me. She told me it's mine. Hindi ko nasuot nang umalis kami ni Kal kanina. "Is this ring y-yours?" Marahan akong tumango kay Mommy Eli kahit puno ng pagtataka. "Sabi lang po ni Nanay Ising ay akin daw po iyan, naka-kwintas daw po sa akin noong bata ako," napatakip siya ng bibig at nanghihinang napaluhod sa harapan ko. Marahil ay bumigay ang tuhod ni mommy sa pagkabigla. Napaawang ang bibig ko tsaka siya dinaluhan sa pag-iyak.

"That ring was the same ring I let our baby wear as a necklace with her initials. Nehemia Cerys. She was born in London and got kidnapped while she was still a baby." Napahinto ako sa pag-alo kay Mommy Eli. "We've been searching for her for a long time and lost hope of still finding her. We thought she's already dead, the kidnappers made us believe." Narinig ko na ang tungkol dito, but I haven't heard much of the details. If this was the same ring. Then could it be...

Hinawakan ni Mommy Eli ang magkabilang pisngi ko. Hindi ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. I realized I couldn't be that numb for any feeling at all. Dahil ngayon ay ramdam ko na, ramdam na ramdam ang pangungulila sa aking mga magulang. I've always been contented of Nanay Ising, that I really didn't think much of my real parents. I've always think I've been thrown away so there's no reason they would still be looking for me. Kaya nakuntento ako, sa buhay at sa mga taong pinagkaloob sa akin ng Panginoon. Ang mamalimos ay hindi madali, but I was able to get through it every single day because I have Nanay Ising, and the rest of the kids with me and there were times I'm blessed with a lot of people despite of harsh words we received daily.