Your Venom - Chapter Twenty One

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"Hey Red, what are you doing here?" I ask, watching as Red sits in the seat Logan was just in.

"I'm here to look after you. We're taking shifts" Red explains and I nod.

"See you later, Lexie" Logan says and I smile.

"Thanks for everything, Lo" I reply and he winks before leaving.

"How are you feeling?" Red asks as I settle down in my bed, rolling on my side to face him.

"A little sick, but that's probably nerves" I say and he smiles sympathetically.

"There's nothing to be worried about, everyone is eager to see you" Red tells me.

"That's what is worrying me" I admit and he rolls his eyes, smiling.

"Silly girl" he sighs, sitting back in his chair. "Apart from nerves, how are you feeling?"

"A little weak. I'm hoping to sleep most of the day so I'll have enough energy to make it through tonight" I say. 

"Then sleep. I don't mind" he says and I nod, rolling away from him and trying to catch some shut eye.

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  Gasping, I wake up from a hideous nightmare. Red watches me carefully as my eyes start to sting and my face crumples. Tears pour and I push my face into a pillow, wanting to hide myself from Red as I blush with embarrassment. "Why are you crying?" Red asks.

"Nightmare" I say in between sobs.

"What was it about, or don't you want to talk about it?" he asks.

"I was just dreaming about . . . about hunting and . . . I killed this woman . . . and she was crying and begging and . . . and then it was her funeral . . . and she had three little kids" I cry and he sighs.

  "Does that worry you? Your diet and cravings?" he asks and I nod.

"Yeah" I reply, starting to stop crying, telling myself it isn't real. But there is a nagging voice saying it'll soon be happening.

"It's not that bad, you don't think about it after a while" he sighs.

"How can you not be thinking about it?!" I almost shriek, turning round to face Red with the last of my energy.

"I guess we're used to it, we've become numb to the guilt" he tells me.

"That's horrible. That's disgusting!" I screech.

"We're sorry for it, but we try and forget about it. We realise it's wrong and we're tearing apart families but we can't help it. It's like when humans eat animals, like pigs and chickens, you don't sit there crying about them. You don't think those animals have families?" he asks.

"But this is different! These are people! Humans!" I protest.

"So? Look, Lexie, it's no different from eating animals" he sighs and I can't help the part of me that agrees.

  We sit in silence while I think about Red's words, wondering how many people he killed before he took on this attitude. I try not to let the guilt of my future diet affect me, pushing it to the back of mind, but it keeps resurfacing, making me think about it, making me feel so guilty. "How will I be on my first kill? Is it . . . is it easy?" I ask and he shrugs.

"It takes a while to do it without making too much of a mess. You're first kill is messy, you're too concerned about the blood to care about the person, to care about the noise, to care about the pain" Red says and I shiver. "Why did you want to know?"

"I want to be prepared. I want to know everything before this happens" I say.

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  When Red switches shifts with Meadow, I'm asleep, so when I wake I get a surprise to see her watching over me, sitting still on her chair with concentrating eyes. "Hey" I say.

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