Chapter 35

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As I laid there with silent tears falling from my eyes, I heard as footsteps slowly approached the bed. I open them to see Niklaus standing infront of the bed with a gloomy expression on his face.

"I overreacted, amore. I'm sorry." He choked out in a pained voice.

I sat up, studying his face. His eye lids swollen from crying, his cheeks were blotchy, his nose had a red tint. Remorse was in his eyes.

I crawled over to him, throwing my arms around his neck. He pulled my body close to his, nuzzling his face in the crook of my neck. We both let out a sigh of relief.

"Let's go home." He whispered in my ear as he carried me out to his car.

He gently sat me in the passenger seat and buckled me in. I chuckled lightly and he returned a small smile. He looked deep into my eyes, caressing my cheek before closing the door and getting in himself.

The car ride was in comfortable silence. Neither one of us wanting to have the conversation that awaited in a car.

Once we were back at the house, we walked up to my room. I grab Niklaus' hand and lead him to the bed, where we both sit on the edge.

I fumble with my fingers as I stumble for the words I want to say.

"Why did you start doing drugs, Cattleya? You know what we went through when Giovanni went down that path." His voice low, almost a whisper.

"Because I'm selfish, Nico. I wanted to escape the pain and guilt I feel, and I didn't care about how my actions would affect others."

Even I was hurt with my honesty. I had been nothing but selfish since Giovanni's death, believing I was entitled to do as I pleased because I was hurt. But so was everyone else.

Silence.

"I never meant to hurt you. I never even wanted you to know I was getting high. It was naive of me to think I'd be able to hide that from you."

I reached over to interwine our fingers. His eyes that were focused on the floor, flickered to mine.

"I just look at you and I'm weak. I wanted to run to you and be wrapped in your warm embrace, I wanted you to comfort me and take my pain away, I wanted you to be my drug, but I couldn't because I thought I was betraying Giovanni. So I numbed my mind and body with real drugs."

I had to look away from him, embarrassed as I remembered the drugs he found in my purse.

"When you found those pills and kicked me out, I felt like you took the air out of my lungs. I realized how pointless staying away from you really is, when all I want is to be by your side. Giovanni isn't coming back and all I'm doing is continuously breaking my own heart. I'm torturing myself."

Look back at him and let out a breath, relief washing over my body as the words come out of my mouth.

"I love you, Nico, so fucking much. I'm done fighting it."

He smashed his lips to mine. Electricity flying between us. I melt into his kiss, tugging his hair as I climbed onto his lap.

I pulled away to look into his eyes. They were glistening with love, with freedom.

"I love you, Cattleya."

My heart stopped. The butterflies in my stomach went into a frenzy. A smile spread across my face. I felt a weight lifted from my shoulders.

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