I felt as Niklaus walked in the shower behind me, fully clothed, taking the loaf away and hugging me tightly. My body jerked instinctively, but relaxed as my lungs were filled with his familiar scent. After a few minutes, he carried me bridal style to the tub, gently lowering me down into warm water. My body was completely shielded by the bubbles floating on the surface from whatever he had put in the bath.
For what exactly, I'm not sure. For being here with me, for stopping me from scrubbing my skin off, for letting me do what I needed to do to Alexis and Stephanie, for understanding.
He flashed me a sweet smile.
"You're so strong, Cattleya."
"I don't feel strong. I feel weak and pathetic." I pulled my knees to my chest, resting my chin on them.
He strokes my hair. "One day, you'll see what I see when I look at you."
We sat in silence for a couple minutes, with him kneeling right next to the tub.
"I can still feel him on my skin." I whispered. "I don't want him to be the last person who touched me but... but Giovanni's gone."
I looked at him with pleading eyes, hoping he'd understand what I needed him to do for me. He looked away, avoiding my gaze.
"I can't. You're not in the right head space right now, Cattleya."
"Please take this feeling of disgust away. Just this once." I reached over, cupping his face, and gently kissing his lips causing a jolt of electricity to run through my body. He stiffened.
"Cattleya, stop. I don't think I'm going to be able to stop myself." He warned through my kiss, but made no attempt to stop it.
I grab the back of his neck, tugging at his hair while biting his bottom lip. A groan escapes his mouth as he relaxes into the kiss. He slowly stands up, making me follow his lead as to not break contact. He wraps his arms around my bare waist, lifting me out of the tub. I immediately grip on to his torso with my legs, as he walks us to the bed. He gently lays my body down, breaking the kiss to look down at me.
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
I nod my head. "I need this."
I start to unbutton his white dress shirt, looking deep into his eyes. Guilt starting to creep through my body, so I smash my lips to his, feeling the electricity once again. He pulls off his shirt, tossing it to the ground. He fumbles a bit to undo his belt and pants, but soon enough they join his shirt on the floor. His hot skin pressed against my body, igniting something in my core I hadn't felt in a long time.
I tugged at his briefs, without breaking the kiss. Seemingly understanding what I wanted, he takes them off as he smirks under our kiss.
"Are you ready?" He asked cautiously.
He puts his manhood against my entrance way, and slowly begins to push it in. Panic starts to consume my body, but his voice pulls my attention to him.
"Look at me, amore. It's me. Not him."
I look deep into his eyes, focusing on them as he completely enters me. My body begging for more but my brain is resisting. He plants a sweet kiss on my forehead, cutting off my connection to my brain, as his slowly begins to thrust. My body surrending completely to the pleasure. Suddenly, I was 19 again.
I wake up with a start, my body panicking, but my mind doesn't know why. I feel sweat beads dripping down my face as I hyperventilate. I feel as hands cup my face, Niklaus' eyes staring into mine.
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***Content warning*** 18+ ONLY - Mature theme -Strong language Cattleya has everything she could ever want. She is jaw droppingly beautiful, her demeanor demands respect, her confidence unwavering, has access to more money than she could ever spend...