Confession #44: How am I supposed to get everything done when I get told constantly that I can't do it, or manage?
I'm tired of hearing "you can't do it". My famiy keeps on pushing me to bring up my grades. They keep on telling me that my grades are bad and horrible.
Really? Tell me family how three B's and three A's are horrible.
I just want someone to tell me that I'm doing a great and amazing job.
Praise is something that I rarely get in this family. Love? Yeah I get that. Attention? Ehhh not so much but okay. Praise is something that I really want.
My brother thinks that my grades are dwindling because of robotics because I'm not spending more time on my homework and things like that.
Yeah right. I can manage, I brought my C grade in math to a B. Ain't there anyone going to say "I'm proud of you?"
Or at least encouragement would help.
Well, I also want to do this college application for this program where I can take college classes as a high school student.
I want to do it.... BUT....
My brother keeps on telling me that I won't be able to manage it.
Why can't he just say "omg yes! you go girl! Make me proud!"
I"m going to do it no matter what.
I WANT TO PROVE ALL OF MY FUCKING FAMILY HOW RESPONSIBLE I CAN FUCKING BE.
IT'S ABOUT TIME THEY SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN TO THE QUIET GIRL.
I'm going to talk to my parents about this program either tonight or tomorrow.
Then, I'm going to pass out letter recommendations and things to teachers on Monday.
Then on Tuesday, I will write my essay.
It will be done. i don't give two shits about the you can't do this crap.
I'M FUCKING INDEPENDENT. LET ME BE FREE AND GET A TASTE OF BEING A REAL WOMAN.
Okay, I'm calm now xD Just needed to get that out of my system before I could do anything else xD
NOW MARCHING ONWARD TO MY HOMEWORK! I WILL GET IT DONE THIS SATURDAY NIGHT AND READ THE QURAN AND CLEAN MY ROOM AND CREATE A NICE LIST OF THINGS TO DO FOR SCHOOL DAYS AND WEEKENDS.
I'm right about this whole not backing down thing....
RIGHT??? (i'm beginning to feel unsure....)
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe I'm just Taz. A girl who is...