I like lamar and everything but since im pregnant and the baby is not his i think im just gonna be single and maybe later in life we can get together or something idk but he probably wont want to be with me because of the baby but there's nothing i can do and im not getting a abortion and giving him/her up for adoption.
That wont never be a option and im not telling dj what good is it if he knows he doesn't care anyway but i need to make an appointment but that can wait i woke the kids after i cooked and they ate i cleaned up then got jayD dressed and brushed his teeth then got Destiny dressed and did her hair and brushed her teeth mia got her self ready.
She doesn't like when i try to help her after they were dressed i needed to figure out what to do today school is about to start but not today so i didn't know what to do it was to early to do anything right now.
We were all watching tv they were layed all over me
Me: what yall want to do today
Destiny: go to anut tiffany house
Me: i gotta see if she's up
I got my phone and called tiff
Me: wyd we want to come over
Tiff: you can come jay not here he out doin god knows what
Me: ok we'll be over in a minute
Tiff: ill be watin
Tiff: alright 1
Me: how many times i got to tell you. You anit no thug
Tiff: girl im what ever i wanna be i be in these streets you just dont know that was my secret
I laughed at her i heard nevaeh in the background
Nevaeh: i wanna be in the streets to mommy just like you
My mouth dropped and i started laughing
Tiff: no you dont baby mommy was just playin
Nevaeh: i wanna be your partner in crime
Tiff: im not doing any crimes Nevaeh
Nevaeh: well can i be daddy's
Me: look what you started
Tiff: i know ill call you back
Me: Yea you do that
She said them hurried up and hung up i shook my head we. Stayed on the couch watching tv for a while then went to tiffs house the girls played and jayD talked to jay when he got back.
Tiff: what you think you havin'
Me: i think a boy what about you
Tiff: i dont know i think jayD would be happy but i can see you havin another girl
Me: as long as the baby health i really dont care
Tiff: want to start naming
Me: dont you think its to early
Tiff: its never to early
Me: well what you have in mind
Tiff: for a girl tiffany for a boy lamar
Me: you not funny
She start laughing she was tryin to be funny but it wasnt funny to me only a little i shook my head at her and laughed a little
Me: why tiffany
Tiff: why not im the anut
Me: ill think about it
We sat there trying to come up with names for the longest tiff cooked and we ate over there then talked some more when it got late and jayD fell asleep i took him to his dad's.
I knocked on the door and he answered i carried jayD to his room and took off his jacket and shoes and his clothes and put on his pj's and put him under the covers i walked out his room and shut the door lamar was in the living room .
Me: he ate he should be fine for the rest of the night and jay tired him out so he should be sleep the rest of the night to
I got ready to leave but he stopped me
Lamar: you dont want to stay
Me: um the kids are waiting on me so..so I have to go
I got nervous and started stuttering i tryed walking out again but he got in front of the door
Lamar: what's wrong wit you lay
I looked down and started messing with my fingers he took his hand and lifted my head up
Lamar: you gonna tell me
I felt like i wanted to cry and that's what i did i started crying and couldn't stop he grabbed my hand and walked me to his room and sat me on the bed then shut the door and sat next to me. He pulled me into a hug and i cried on his chest he rubbed my back
Larmar: please tell me what ever it is we can work it out......... i love you
Me: i love you to
I said through sobs
Lamar: if you love me you would tell me
I wiped my tears and sat up i signed
Me: ok well im pregnant by my ex but it was way before i went to jail but i didnt know i took a test and it was positive but i swear i didn't know but i understand if you dont want to be with me im 21 with 3 kids and one on the way i was scard to tell you because i didn't know how you would take it and i really do love you
Lamar: if you didnt know you didnt know why would you be scard to tell me i love you so im sticking with you through everything and the baby anit no bitch nigga name dj's that's my baby.
I had the biggest smile i was happy he still wanted to try and make this work .
Me: so where do we stand
Lamar: we together
I hugged him then pulled away we were looking at each other then he leaned in and kissed me i kissed back the kiss deepened it was the heat of the moment but i pulled away as much as i wanted to i still had to get to the girl.
Me: sorry the girls probably waitin on me
Lamar: alright we can finish later then
We both smiled i kissed him then went to Tiff's house where i got there she told me the girls wanted to sleep over her house and she had this friend mia's age she was gonna invite over for her if she wants all them kids in her house she can have em .
I left and you know right where i went yepp lamar's house he was surprised and asked about the girls i told him an you know what happened after that if you didnt know it was our 1st time together an it was great lol i stayed over there that night wrapped in lamars arms.
-I need a boy name and middle name and a girl name and middle name
- who's last name should the baby jave
-aww they together
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