"I was done with the lies. The constant worry of him. Alcohol staining walls, as the smoke with regret and humanity filled our lungs. Slowing blowing out of what integrity we had left. I was done with everything. I have no fight left in me. So I packed my stuff and moved away.
Ever since he's non stop calling, showing up at my new place. I had to change my number, twice. It's like push and pull type of connection. The more I push him, the more he tries to pull me in with his flowers, his voice mails. I honestly can't take it anymore. I love him, but at the same time I hate what we had going on. "
"So why exactly are you here today?"
"Did you not here a fucking word I've said. I want him to leave me alone but in order for that to happen. I need you to help me put him in the past. So that way I can focus on my future."
"Are you ready to get over him? Because from what your saying to me, it feels though you still love him to the point you don't want him in the past. In fact you want him in your future. You want him to change so you two will be together. You don't wanna let him go. Your still deeply and emotionally in love. But your afraid to admit it. "
I bit my lip looking at my psychologist, rubbing my thumbs together.
"I think your right doc." I pulled my hair to the side, tugging on my bottom lip.
"I'll talk to you later doc. I got- things to do." I started grabbing for my stuff just as her hand softly grazed mine.
" Don't worry. It'll get better." she gave me a sympathetic grin as I grabbed her hand shaking it.
"I hope so."
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Past.
Romance"Exactly! What we had was in the past. This is the present, meaning there's nothing between and you need to accept that."
