This is not our Goodbye

Riddles

They both woke up late because of their  last nights strenous activity which gave a burning ass and aching hips to Beam. Forth is panicking with what he should do to ease the pain. He bought a stab of painkiller and he massaged Beams hips after their warm salt bath. He also cooked Beams favorite chicken noodle soup and fed him while Beam is comfortably propped on the pillow.

Forth let Beam take a nap after their breakfast to regain more of his strength. For their first time he overdid what Beams body could take so he felt so guilty looking at the tired face of Beam. He caress Beams face and kissed his lips before he stand up to tidy the bed sheets that he have pulled out from their bed at dawn.

He cooked their lunch while Beam is still asleep, he also busied himself doing the laundry of the sheets they have messed up last night.

He entered the bedroom again and he saw Beam is already awake but still comfortably lying and snuggled in Forths pillow.

"Hello baby! How are you feeling?" Forth ask him tenderly when he is seated beside him. He comb Beams black shiny hair with his fingers.

"Better than this morning!" Beam answered shyly.

Forth stare at the blushing Beam lovingly, his pale skin is grazed with a tinge of lovely pink color.

"Why are you staring?" Beam ask shyly and buried his face on Forths pillow. He is only on his boxers.

"You are adorable baby!" Forth lean on Beam to snuggle his face. Beam wrap his arms around Forths body.

"I love you Forth!" Beam whispers against Forths hair.

"I love you too Beam! Thank you for sharing your life to me!" Forth look up to see Beams loving face.

"Ive always wanted to be in your life Forth! I just dont know how!" Beam whispers while leisurely caressing Forths back.

"Thats why you left?" Forth ask cautiously. They havent discussed the reasons why Beam left six years ago. Beam inhales deeply.

"I didnt know anything about your feelings when I left. I just focused on the hurt I felt that time. Ive been loving my bestfriend since I can remember, I have witnessed how you change girlfriends easily, its totally okay with me since I know that you are not serious with any of them! But then you brought Pring for the family to meet. I saw how happy you are so I have to let go! I cannot let go if I will always see you with her, witnessing your love for her that Im dreaming of having for myself. I just cant Forth, you will be killing me slowly if I will stay!" Beam softly explains his reasons for leaving.

Forth tighten his hold on Beams body.

"But now I understand all of it Forth! Although we have lost several years that we are supposed to be together, I believe that everything has its reasons why it happened, I cannot assure you back then that I could be this brave to withstand whatever tests that our relationship might experience. Unlike now that Im totally ready for everything Forth, I can even turn my back from everything just to be with you! I have already reached the peak of my career and I felt lonely up there Forth, its a useless battle and a hollow success!" Beam said with a firm conviction while looking directly at Forths eyes.

"This time, I will claim what is mine!" Beam added in a whisper.

"Ive been waiting for it for a long time!" Forth said softly while looking at Beam with his loving gaze.

Beam smile warmly at Forth and caress his face tenderly.

"Lets have lunch, you have to take another painkiller baby!" Forth helped Beam to sit up leaning on the headboard.