This is not our Goodbye

Home Together

They are on the way out of the restaurant when Beam cling his arm on Forths arm on their way to the elevator. Forth doesnt seems to mind.

"Can I go with you at your office?" Beam ask cautiously.

"I will be busy the whole afternoon!" Forth answered uninterestedly.

"I can just wait there! Do you have a
girlfriend that would get jealous if I will be there!?" Beam insisted gently tugging Forths arm that he is holding.

Forth just glares at him while Beam smiles  snuggling his face and placing his chin on Forths arm. They stayed quite on that position until the elevator opened and they went out.

They arrived in Forths office in time for his meeting. Beam just make himself comfortable in the couch while Forth is preparing the documents he needed. Beam is just staring at Forth who is engrossed with what he is doing in his table.

Beam walk beside him and without a word he embraces Forth from behind snuggling his face on the crook of Forths neck. Forth was startled with what he did but did not pull away from him. Beam inhales deeply to fill up his lungs with Forths scent and tighten his hold on his shoulder. They stayed still to enjoy the wonderful moment. They dont need words to justify everything.

"Can we talk after?!" Beam whispers softly in Forths neck against his skin. Forth just sigh. “Please?!" Beam added pleading.

"P' cancel my meeting this afternoon, I have an urgent matter to attend!" Forth called P'Mel for the last minute cancellation.

Beam is a little surprised, he didnt expect the talk to be now. Forth doesnt need to cancel his meeting.

"Forth it could wait!" Beam hesitantly whispers. But Forth didnt say anything, he just stay seated and unmoving.

Beam didnt let go of Forth either, they are still on their position enjoying the silence.

Beam started to plant gentle kisses on Forths neck and nibbling on the skin that his lips could touch.

"Hmm!" Forth made a small grunt with what Beam is doing. Beam became a little more aggressive and started to suck Forth in his neck. Beam becomes hungrier once he tasted Forths skin, he is not aware that he is already sucking hard.

"Ngghhn...Beam!" Forth calls him weakly. Its the first time Forth calls him by his name with emotion from the time he came back. Forth turn his chair towards Beam and pull Beam on his waist to sit on his lap.

Beams arms are still encircled on Forths neck while their gazes are locked. Beam put his forehead on Forths and nuzzle each others nose. Forth hold Beams waist tighter to his body.

"Did I wasted six years of our lives?" Beam ask breathlessly. The roller coaster of emotions is too much for him to handle.

Forth didnt answer but totally tighten his hold on Beams body. They hugged each other tighter as they remain silent for a long while. Beams head is resting on Forths shoulder while his face is in the crook of Forths neck. They are contented with just holding each other and savor the moment of unspoken emotions that has been hidden and suppressed for how many years.

They lost track of time of how long they stayed in their position. Words are not spoken between them, they just know that their heart beats as one. They only need this silence to understand the long lost years that they have been in denial. The relationship that has been sugar coated with the word 'friendship'.

"Lets go home!" Beam whispers.

He felt Forths lips on his forehead before they stand up. Beam look at Forth and smile when he sees his marks on Forths neck, he caress the very visible marks.