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Chapter 54: Mansion a request from Lil_Ass_Kicker

A little note you might wanna listen to the song when I say go.

Anyway on with the story.
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Peter sat perched on top of a random building watching over his city that he loves and protects with a heavy heart whilst all the citizens of New York are sleeping Peter has to go home and he's dreading it.

He just watches the stars twinkle on this quiet, beautiful night. He can't stay long because he had to get home before May kills him. Let's just say that Peter's scars aren't only from fighting bad guys.

So he decided to let himself get all comfy and enjoy some peace and quiet until he got tired, and take whatever punishment he'd be given. Without even thinking he began to harmonize. (Listen to the song now also the italic lettering is Peter singing.)

Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression

My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place

There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see

I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'till they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in

That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

As he sang Peter tasted the salty tear drops as his voice started breaking it was a painful thing to watch or hear even.

Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried

Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?

Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint
Cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change, are you confused?

Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things

But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called

But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can

Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?

Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
And slept in
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression

My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Inside this mansion
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this door's not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me

I'm barricaded inside so stop watching
I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in

I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it was safer in there

But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in
Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since

I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win

Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
Lonely (lonely) it's lonely
Oh yeah, it's lonely
Inside this mansion

What Peter didn't was that his mentor was watching the entire time and softly clinked his boots as he settled onto the rough tiling, "Peter, what are you doing up here? Shouldn't you be at home sleeping?"

Peter shifted his head in Tony's direction as his cheeks tinted a bright pink, "Oh, hi Mister Stark! I was getting ready to go home, but I wanted to watch the stars for a few minutes," he explained.

Tony asked about to start the thrusters in his suit, "Want me to drop you off?"

Peter shook his head quickly declining, "N-no, I'm o-okay. I'm actually going to go now Mister Stark, but I'll see you at the tower tomorrow."

He launched a web forward replying to his mentor saying to be safe and goodnight with a goodnight of his own, and each Avenger turned to head for a night's rest.
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The End of Chapter 54