home; chapter eight - maybe

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Two weeks. Two weeks na walang paramdam, two weeks na wala kaming kahit na anong komunikasyon. Hindi ko alam kung naguiguilty ba ako na hindi ko pa siya tinatawagan, pero sa tuwing hahawakan ko ang phone ko upang tawagan siya ay may pumipigil sa akin.

On those two weeks ay tinutulungan din ako ni Lay na mas maging masaya sa mga araw na hindi ko nakakasama si Woozi. He kept trying to make me socialize, but we still end up with only him and I, and occassional ChanBaek with us.

Sulat ako ng sulat ng mga kanta, at hindi ko na rin napapansin kung anong mga klaseng emosyon ang mga nandun, pero agad naman na naaaccept ang mga gawa ko. So far, wala pang narereject sa mga gawa ko. If anything, nakikipag-agawan pa si Chenle kay Summer sa mga kanta na isinusulat ko. Minsan naman ay gagawa kami ni Lay ng mga kanta kung may mga oras na libre kaming parehas.

Madalas rin ay papasok sa isipan ko si Woozi and how I think he is a great composer and producer himself. I heard he was the one who was always hands on with composing and producing Seventeen's songs. Kamusta na kaya siya? Has he been working properly?

"Bakit naman ang tamlay mo dyan?" Tanong bigla ni Lay, nang tabihan niya ako sa studio. I chuckled and then shook my head.

"Wala ito, hindi ka pa ba nasanay na makita akong nag-iisip?" Tanong ko, at saka ibinaba ang hawak kong lapis.

Kinuha naman niya ang papel na sinusulatan ko, at kukunin ko sana pabalik but he was so into it kaya hinayaan ko nalang. Maybe I did need his opinion about it, somehow.

Maybe
Freya

Maybe I do miss you but these words won't be enough to say it
Maybe the way you care is what I miss the most,
Or maybe the way you make me feel special somehow
Something about you is special, something about you is captivating
Maybe I'm just confused, but maybe I miss you, too

"Hmm? Let me guess... about Woozi?" Biglang tanong ni Lay, habang nakafocus pa rin sa papel. Kinuha naman niya ang lapis na ibinaba ko kanina and then tapped the paper.

"Bakit?" Tanong ko, and then he chuckled.

"Woozi sure is a lucky guy. Gusto mo ba siya?" Tanong ni Lay, at namula ang mga pisngi ko bago umiling. "Also, this song can be a good duet. Sasagutin nung lalaki yung mga words na sinulat mo. Can I write the other parts?"

I sighed, and then nodded. He smiled, at saka nag-umpisa na sa pagsusulat.

"Let me just pretend I'm Woozi." He muttered, as he wrote.

Nang matapos siya ay siya namang inabot niya sa akin yung verse na sinulat niya.

Maybe the only way I think of to not miss you
Is to pretend you're into that other guy
Maybe you'd be better with him if he'd treat you right
And maybe I'd be jealous but that's how life is, so true
Maybe I'd be jealous but would it change a thing?
Maybe I miss you too but he's better off with you

"Lay, anong nais mong iparating?" Tanong ko, chuckling as I read his part. He gave me a playful smile before leaning forwards and answering me.

"I wrote that in Woozi's point of view. I also want him to say that you're better with me because I'd try to treat you better." Sabi ni Lay, and I chuckled.

"Sira ka talaga. Naloloko ka nanaman eh," sabi ko, and he just gave me a small smile before slowly nodding.

"Eh. Maybe. Pero mas maganda yung song kung ganyan, di ba?" Tanong naman niya and as I thought about it, it adds spice to the song anyway.

"I guess, to add plot," sabi ko, and he grinned.

Nagpaalam naman siya sa akin dahil daw bigla siyang minessage ng manager nila about his activities in China, kaya naman ay hinayaan ko na siya. Baka kailangan ulit siya sa China, e. Wala naman akong magagawa.

Naiwan nanaman ako na mag-isa, so I closed my eyes.

What's Woozi doing right now? May sama pa ba siya ng loob sa akin? Ano kayang nararamdaman niya na hindi ko pa rin siya kinakausap.

Pushing down the guilt in my heart, I sighed. Lilipas din to.






"Freya, I'm assigning you a project," sabi ng CEO, at nagulat naman ako. Nakasalubong ko lang siya sa may hallway at binati ko, and then agad naman siyang pinigilan ako.

"A-Ano pong project?" Tanong ko naman, and then he gave me a smile.

"It's a collaboration between Ross and SM Entertainment. I want you to write a song for Marione and Winter. Actually, Marione will help with songwriting. You should be meeting her in right about..." sabi ni CEO, at napalingon siya sa may likod ko. "Now."

Ngumiti si CEO at saka tumango na, bago siya umalis. There stood Marione, smiling sweetly at me like the sweet girl she is.

Nang makaalis na si CEO ay agad naman niya akong sinugod ng yakap. I was surprised, but I hugged her back. It was when she started sobbing that I spoke.

"Oh, bakit naiyak ka nanaman?" Tanong ko, and then she cried even more.

"I missed you, Freya. Like, super! Nakakainis, ngayon lang tayo nagkita ulit. I have so many things to tell you about! Can we go to Ai Coffee shop and taaaalk?" Sabi ni Marione, after she pulled away from the hug.

I didn't realize that tears started flowing out of my eyes as well until she chuckled and wiped them.

"Fate has a way to bring us away from each other, but fate also has a way to bring us back home, eh?" Sabi ni Marione, as she held my hand.

I blinked. She was right.

If I hadn't met Woozi, if I didn't agree to go on a walk with him that day, I wouldn't have a chance to meet with Marione again. And I wouldn't have someone like Woozi who cares for me as well.

"Also, you have to tell me about you and Uji. Laging beast mode mula nung nagkamisunderstanding kayo. I actually heard something along the lines of baka maagaw na siya sakin ni Lay-"

"Shhh!"

"HAHAHAHAHAHA. Bagay naman kayo ni Lay, pero mas bagay kayo ni Woozi-"

"Ria,"

"Freya,"

"Omg, that sounded so cute."

I facepalmed.

I missed her so much! And on top of it all, I'm so glad she still remembers me and treats me the same.

Fate, you're starting to make me feel what home should really feel like.

Maybe you'd bring me back to the days we talked, too?

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