Endearment | komahina (COMPLETED)

Talking

We continued our journey down the small island, making small talk about Hope's peak academy and our classmates. Although I didn't know many of the people she talked about, me being a reserve course student, I still knew most of them from the trip and around the hallways at school.

I mean I was almost friends with one....but obviously that didn't work out too well. But now I'm friends with mostly everyone on the trip, I never thought anyone would like me but here I was with a bunch of new friends.
That was so weird to think about.

I brought up Kazuichi and wondered what he might be doing.
We joked around making fun of Kazuichi for trying to get with Sonia all the time, most likely what he was doing at the moment.

"And he's always like Miss sonnniaaa, pleassseee." She burst out laughing breaking her mocking of Kazuichi.
It was hard for her to make fun of her friends.

I smiled laughing out loud.

She stopped and gave me a shocked expression.

Did I really not laugh that much?
"I'm glad your happy again." She gestured to the waves.
"Wow the waves are really rough today."
I nodded and agreed.
We kept traveling along the winding path, until we approached a figure....

Was he still here from earlier?

"Oh, hey Nagito!" She smiled widely sort of rushing over to greet him.
I stayed back keeping my distance a little I didn't want to talk to him.
"Hey Chiaki how is your day going?" He asked.

"Really good, me and Hajime were at the library together. We had a small gaming competition. I wish you had been there it would have been super fun with all three of us."

I beg to differ with that statement, it would have been horrible.
He gave me a look and seemed to get a bit tense after she said that.
"Oh well maybe another time.." he looked over at me trailing off his conversation with Chiaki. This glare was kinda strange.

I mean he had glared at me loads of times, but this was....different. Kind of hard to explain, it was almost a good glare.
Finally I decided to walk over, I mean just standing there was a bit weird.
Almost stalkerish.
He quickly looked down, in a sort of flustered way.
I approached them quietly as they kept talking.

"Do you wanna walk with us up to titty typhoon? I'm sure Ibuki and Mikan are there or maybe Sonia and Gundham. We could all hangout together." he perked up at her offer.
I shrugged slightly, but agreed.
"We could do that." I smiled at him.
He looked back down not saying a word.

"Are you okay Nagito?" Chiaki lightly touched his shoulder and he flinched, and she pulled her hand away quickly.
"Yeah...sure." He glanced at me again, I could feel the tension of me being there.

Why did he dislike me so much?
"Well maybe we could do something...else around here?" I pointed over to the small winding road.
"Or maybe just me and Chiaki could do something..." he tried to be nice about it but it just came off as mean.
"Why can't all of us hangout?" Chiaki tilted her head a bit in confusion.

"Because he's a reserve course student, why does he matter? He's not like-" Chiaki cut him off by hitting his shoulder.
"Ouch." He rubbed were she impacted her hand slowly in pain.
"Nagito that's not okay, Hajime is just like any of us." I could tell he wanted to say more remarks but stopped due to his best friends intervention.

But Chiaki was right, I was just like anyone here a normal high school student.

He stayed quiet and continued to walk with us.
"So you guys had a gaming competition?" He smiled and waited for Chiaki to explain the events that had occurred earlier.
We continued to our cottages walking past the pool that glimmered off the light from the moon.

I couldn't believe it was already night time the day had gone by so fast.
"Well we better go off to bed it's getting kind of late, sorry we couldn't do anything else today."
"It's okay Chiaki there's always tomorrow." I shrugged awkwardly and looked up at the glowing sky.
"Well, I'm off to bed." She smiled waving at both of us as she walked away towards her cottage.
I stood there still looking up at the bright glowing stars. It always amazed me how bright they could get. I noticed the shadow in the corner didn't move from where he was.
He was standing a few feet away from me but didn't move at all.
Didn't he need to go to sleep too? It's not like he would want to talk to me.
But really in the back of my mind it was me who didn't want to talk to him.

"Hajime could we talk now?" I remembered from earlier he mentioned he wanted to talk to me. I honestly didn't really want to, especially since Chiaki wasn't near by.
"I don't know I guess it depends on what you want to talk about?" I questioned.

"Well, I just wanted to say maybe you aren't as bad as I thought you were."
Did he really just say that to me?
After the way he treated me he finally decides to be nice to me? It was a bit strange, a little too weird.

"But..." of course there was a catch I knew it.
"Your still just a reserve course student, don't think that changes much." My happiness dropped.
Those words stung, why couldn't he just be nice to me for one day without insulting me some how?
"Is that...all?" I asked sadly waiting for a reply.

He must have been shocked I spoke up because he looked at me a confused expression spread across his face like he wasn't sure what to say. A bit of his old self gleamed through, and I could see the nice boy sitting on the grass again waiting for someone to come up and talk to him. Holding up the paper reading "friends" on it, that I so quickly answered to.
Why couldn't it have been like that?
I couldn't get that thought out of my mind

We could have been friends.

"I guess that's it then." I began to walk away not even wanting to look back or bother to hear a response.
My thoughts were building up and made me more sad than I had been. I didn't even say goodbye but it was best to leave. I could hear him walk down the path to his cottage as I walked to mine.

Maybe tomorrow would be better...

But that's what I seemed to always tell myself.