If Only

Chapter 44

Austin's POV

I wake up the next morning due to the pain in my back which reminds of everything that happened last night and how Garrett kind if showed up because he was worried about me, but I know that I can't let show just how much it means to me. I let out a sigh as I turnover in my bed and peer over the side to see a shirtless and sleeping Garrett still on my floor. I find myself staring at him and wishing that I could tell him the truth, but deep down I know that I have a responsibly to my family as the future of the Black family, and I don't have time to deal with the issues of my personal life.

I let out a large moan as the pain in my back becomes gripping, I place my hand on my back and slowly to start to massage it trying to ease the pain but it wasn't doing any good. I must not have been paying attention because the next thing I know my hand slips out from under me and I fall out of my bed and onto Garrett himself making him let out a powerful grunt as he awakes. "I'm sorry Garrett, I didn't mean to fall on you." I say grunting a little bit as I sit up and we know notice the awkward position we are in, "I am used to waking up with a girl on top of me, but I have to say that this is the first time that I have been woken up with a guy on top of me." He jokes and I look at him like he lost his mind, how could Garrett be okay with this, if it was me I would be freaking out, but Garrett is acting like this is nothing to him,

"You are just full of surprises Huntsman." I say and Garrett raises his eyebrow at me as he looks from to my hands that are on his lower abdomen and as I notice this my cheeks flare up bright red and I quickly jump off him. "What is wrong with you?" He asks sitting up and stretching, "It was just odd how we ended up......"I start but Garrett cuts me off before I can finish what I am saying. "With you on top of me straddling my waist and looking at me with lust in your eyes." Is it there on the floor speechless not really sure how to talk myself out of this one, "I don't know what you are talking about, but I think that I need a pain pill." I slowly make it to my feet as Garrett does the same. "You know exactly what I am talking about, but if you want to pretend like that didn't happen then fine with me." I feel insulted by his tone of voice it makes me sound like it is my fault that I am struggling with these feelings.

I ignore the pain I am feeling as I hurry downstairs to catch Garrett, "I just don't want people thinking about me and spreading rumors about me and the campus street rat." This comment makes Garrett stops dead in his tracks as he slowly turns around to face me. "What did you just call me?" I think about my comment for a moment and I realize what came out of my mouth and I quickly cover my mouth a little before pushing past him, "I didn't call you anything." I walk into the kitchen opening the medicine cabinet. "I heard what you called me, and you should know how I feel about that name." He snaps at me forcing the door of the cabinet closed, "It just slipped out Garrett, I didn't mean it." Garrett looks at me with disgust as he scoffs at me,

"Like someone like you would ever understand someone like me." Now it is my turn to look at him with a little anger in my eyes, "What do you mean by that?" Garrett rolls his eyes and walks to the front door and opens it but I quickly shut it, "What did you mean by a person like me?" Garrett takes a few steps back, "I meant that someone like you that their whole life figured out, someone that doesn't have to worry about money or problems that us street rats have to worry about." I can hear the acid in his voice but I was not going to let him leave without hearing what I needed to say,

"You have no idea what you are talking about Huntsman. I might have money and all the gilts and glamour, but you have something that I would trade everything I own for." Garrett looks at me confused on how I could just give up my luxury lifestyle for just one thing, "What could have that you would want?" I look deep into his eyes as I sigh, "You have your freedom." The confusion on his face gets deeper and I can tell that he doesn't understand. "You can do whatever you want, you can go anywhere you want, and no one tells you what is right and what is wrong." I can feel my eyes fill up with tears a little bit but I just turn away from him as I feel Garrett walk up behind me, "I never thought of it like that, I don't know you that well Bookworm." I let out a laugh, 

"Maybe that is because no one really gets to know me because all they see is my last name and come up this image that I have to live by." I open the front door, "Don't ever think that you know what my life is like, because you don't, and I would give everything up for an ounce of freedom of letting me decide my future and what I want. I walk away from him as I walk into the kitchen and take a pain pill for my back. "I need to get ready to go to the mall." I say as I hear the sound of the front door close. I turn around and to my shock I see Garrett standing there, "I have a better idea, and I think you are going to like it."