Endearment | komahina (COMPLETED)

Bad memories

After a while of  Kazuichi taking me around the islands we started to get to know each other a lot better than we had before. I was so glad to have a friend, my head had picked itself up and I could face Kazuichi with no problem.

We walked up to the restaurant where only a few people were.
Teru Teru  was scrambling around getting ready to cook something. Most likely lunch, which was good for us because we hadn't ate yet.
"Hey Teru Teru are you cooking something?" Kazuichi took a seat at a table and put his feet up on the Wooden surface. I sat down beside him in another chair around the table, awkwardly listening to their conversation.

"Yes, actually Kazuichi I was planning on cooking something for everyone." He smiled and went on to tell us what kind of dish he was making.
I smiled slightly and he turned to Kazuichi. I felt a little weird so I dropped the smile that spread across my face.
"So Kazuichi why are you hanging out with Hajime so suddenly?" He looked at me curiously but not in a bad way which made me less tense.

"No reason, just thought it would be nice to make new friends, especially on a trip." Teru Teru blinked a few times but smiled and shook my hand.
"Ah, yes Hajime! Well nice to meet you we should really get to know each other better." I felt glad that another person actually seemed to like me for once.

We laughed and talked about the trip and how it was going for each of us. I turned my head to look around the restaurant when I made eye contact with the white haired boy. I turned back quickly and I must have seemed a bit scared from the expression on my face.

Kazuichi and Teru Teru exchanged looks.
"Are you okay Hajime?" Kazuichi looked past me but couldn't figure out why I was so sacred.
"Oh yeah, it's nothing. I'm fine." I looked down and felt that slight feeling of pain inside me.

"Chiaki!" Kazuichi shouted over me and I turned to see Chiaki standing there. He motioned her over and she quickly made her way to our little group of three. Teru Teru was a bit over excited about this which made me a little worried for Chiaki's sake.

"Hey guys." This time her tone was super happy.
"Hey hajime, sorry I didn't really get to talk much I was super involved in this new game I got." She smiled and held out her hand. I shook it and was super delighted to have gained another friend.

I couldn't believe i had actually made friends, I mean they are all Ultimates and I'm....nobody.
I felt a slight bit of guilt. I wasn't sure why, I just did.

"Hajime is actually pretty interesting." Kazuichi side punched me and I rubbed my shoulder.

"That's good." She smiled and I could tell it was a real smile.
"I have to go get the rest of the food! You all stay here! This will be the best meal of your life!" Teru Teru dramatically left the room as we all laughed excited for the food.

We all ate food that was honestly amazing. Teru Teru seemed super pleased by our reactions.
Fuyuhiko walked by slowly scanning over us.
"Hey fuyuhiko come over here there's-"
"No Thanks." He walked off rudely looking a bit flustered and ignoring Kazuichi's invitation.
"That was weird." Kazuichi had a set confused face at the table in the corner.

"Hey guys, why don't we invite Nagito to join us? He seems kinda lonely over there in the corner." Chiaki was staring at the slumped over figure with his hand resting on his cheek. My adrenaline kicked in I immediately spoke up.
"No." I stated. Everyone looked over at me confused.
"Why not hajime? we could add another friend to our group."Teru Teru picked up some dishes and continued to clean up and walked into the kitchen.
"Yeah hajime will get you another friend." Chiaki exclaimed happily.
"No! I said no so no." I didn't care if the boy heard me he didn't need to show up and ruin everything.
Chiaki and kazuichi looked at me in surprise to my slight yell.
"I know he bothers you a little hajime but maybe-" I cut kazuichi off, putting my hands over my face.
"Just....please....no." I sadly looked down tears developing in my eyes.
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I remember leaving my class rounding the corner to lunch for the thousandth time. I made my way down the long twisting hallway, looking at peoples happy smiles, chatting about something that happened or girls whispering about crushes on boys that will never notice them. I continued my short journey almost close to the fountain by the garden, until I heard voices. I disregarded them and finally sat down on the edge of the fountain, taking out my lunch and eating most of it fairly fast so I could get to class before everyone to avoid socializing. Sitting there on the bench was peaceful there was a slight breeze and a couple flowers swayed in the wind.

I liked it like this.
So quiet and alone.
It sounded weird to say but I always enjoyed it. I heard a pack of people walk up while I was looking up at the bright blue sky a couple fluffy clouds slightly touching it.
"Hey look it's the fucking loner." I heard one boy say who started laughing hysterically.

"Oh my god it is." One whispered slightly loud enough for me to hear. I just sat there staring at my shoes.
Always my fucking shoes.
One came up and punched me hard enough to make me look up.
"God do you ever listen, we already told you you don't belong here." He laughed and punched me again.
Ouch.
Another pulled my sleeve ripping it a bit.
Guess I'll have to sew it...again.
I looked to the side while being attacked and saw....Nagito.
Nagito? Why was he here?

They kept pulling me and poking at me and eventually picked me up by my arms. What would they do this time?
"Hey Nagito, get over here." He obeyed the tall boy and walked over.
"Yeah?" He had a strange attitude.
Why was he suddenly with them?

"Do me a favor and dunk him." They all started laughing as I struggled to get out from under their arms.
"Hey stop! Please." I nicely said so maybe somehow possibly they would stop.
"Oh, is he gonna cry?" One pointed and started laughing.

I tried and tried to get their grip off but they tightened it and some tears trickled down my face. Nagito walked up, all of them saying nasty remarks about me and I just couldn't take it. He looked at me with a grin and laughed.
"Your crying! Oh my god your actually crying!" He kept laughing as I remembered the person I thought he was. I thought maybe he could be a good friend.

They lifted me up and I yelled for them to stop.

I thought you could be nice.

"Please stop, please! I'll do anything! I swear just don't hurt me please!" I screamed as more tears fell from my face. They all laughed and they're laughs filled my head.

I thought you were alone too.

I couldn't take this everyday. Nagito pushed me, my hands held out waiting for someone to help me.

I thought you would help me.

His soft green eyes seemed to slightly shift to sadness for a few seconds as I fell into the water, my head hitting the back of the fountain. I quickly got up feeling the back of my head with some blood on my hand.

I thought you would look at me
different.

I looked back up as they all walked away laughing. Nagito looked back for a second still laughing. I sat there drenched in water and blood all over my hand.

I thought you were better than this.