I sat at the breakfast table with Frank, Naomi, and Ray. I looked and saw Jovie walking towards us, she looked a mess. She looked as if she didn't get much sleep last night, tired, stressed out. Her hair was tied up in a messy bun and she was wearing a 'Of Mice & Men' shirt with sweatpants.
She sat down at her usual spot, next to me. I couldnt stop staring at her from the corner of my eye.
•What you should do when you have a crush:
-Ask them out.
•What you actually do when you have a crush:
-Lurk from a distance and stalk them at school imagining a relationship with them.
You see, the worst part about my situation is that theres no hope for me. Iv already been sent into the pits of hell otherwise know as the 'Friend-Zone.' However, as I recall from last night, she kissed me back. She didnt push me away. That had to mean something didnt it?
"You alright Jovie?" Ray asked noticing the glum look on her face.
"Relationships suck." She said simply.
"Her and her boyfriend broke up yesterday." Frank explained to Ray.
"Aw, dont be sad Jovie. He isnt worth it. Your so pretty, you'll find someone new." Naomi said trying to lift her spirits.
"No, im definitely going to stick to the single life for a bit. Im not ready to get back into dating."
Well, fuck. I heard Frank whisper my name.
"Gerard." He mumbled barley audible.
"What?" I whispered back even though I had no idea why we whispering.
He mouthed the words 'Come here' then rose from the table. I was confused but I followed Frank away from the table.
"Ok dude this is your chance dont fuck it up." He said out of earshot from the table.
"What are you talking about?" I replied, still confused.
"Well its pretty fucking obvious you have a thing for Jovie an-"
"What!? I don-"
"Gerard, Im your bro. You really think I wouldn't notice??"
He knew?? I started stuttering trying to think of a lie.
Frank ignored my stutters and slung his arm around my shoulder, ready to give me a pep talk.
"Anyway, Jovie is single now! You have to make a move."
I bit my lip before letting out a sigh.
"What do I do?" I said defeated.
"Hm, well shes really into that Chris guy, just be like him."
"The fuck!? Hell no."
Why would I ever want to be like Chris?? I went through a mental list of all the things Chris had that I didnt. He was tall and buff, I was a fat kid and even now I wasn't completely thin or muscular. He had lots of tattoos and piercings. Nope, nope, nope. Im shit scared of needles, I could never get a tattoo and piercing. Chris was confident and outgoing, I was insecure and shy. We were opposites. I let out a sigh.
"Right now is the perfect time to act, Jovies all sad and shit. You just have to swoop in and show her you care, all you have to do is be there for her. A shoulder to cry on can turn into a dick to ride on." Frank smirked. I gave him an uneasy look.
"I dont know..."
"Look, I can be your wing man. In fact, ill go talk to her right now." Frank laughed. He left me and started running back to the table.
"Frank! Dont!" I called after him.
I watched in terror as he approached Jovie and started talking to her. I saw them both turn and look at me, I couldnt hear what he was saying to her but I didnt like it. I face palmed.
Best friends, they can be a real pain in the ass but you love them anyway.
"Hey Frank." She responded casually.
"Sooo, your single now? Well if you were thinking of dating again I was thinking-"
"Um, Frank, your a good friend. But im not interested in you like that." She cut me off.
"Wha- No! No, im talking about Gerard!"
"Gerard?" She questioned.
I think any girl would be lucky to date a guy like Gerard honestly. He had pale snow white skin and big hazel eyes, his shaggy pitch black hair.
I cleared my throat.
"Yeah, why not. Hes nice, sweet, funny, talented and most importantly... Gerard is hot."
My last remark took her back, she gave me a weird look.
"Uh. A-Are you gay??" She asked wide eyed.
"But you said-"
"Jovie. Im STRAIGHT not BLIND." Of course Gerard was good looking, anyone with eyes could easily tell that. But that didnt mean I was 'attracted' to him. For instance, I think shoes are good looking, but I wouldn't fuck a pair of Converse. The bell rang, Jovie stood up.
"I have to go. See you later." She said, then she turned around and walked away.
After all my classes I retreated back to my dorm. I tiredly tossed my bookbag against my desk and plopped down on my bed. Iv been having more ideas for song lyrics lately, I ripped a piece of paper out of my notebook and grabbed a pen from my desk.
'Bury Me In Black' I wrote across the margin. I started to scribble down some lyrics when I heard my door knob rattle as if someone was trying to enter, my door was locked.
"Coming." I said. I put my pen down and arose from my bed.
The knocks where heavier this time, I rolled my eyes and started to walk towards the door.
"Im coming!" I unlocked the door and opened it.
"Chris??" I gulped.
I looked up at him, he looked MAD. I felt a ping of anxiety and fear, it was just me and him, Frank wasn't here to protect me. I took a deep breath and tried to act as if I wasnt scared of him.
"What do you want? Jovies not here."
"Im not here to see that bitch, im here to finish things with YOU!" He said grabbing the collar of my shirt and yanked me towards him.
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Friends With Benefits (Gerard Way FanFiction)Fanfiction
Jovie Hamilton is just any other scene 18 year old girl into art and kickass rock bands, She ends up attending New Jersey college of visual arts. She doesn't believe in love...until she meets her roommate Gerard Way, but best friends cant have sex...