When I Am Alone

Sometimes, when everything doesn't make sense

Am I worthy?

Will I ever be worthy?

Is life always a carousel?

Going round and round.

Or like a bell?

Ding dong into the surround.

Many days have gone past,

even though its only a phew that last.

Why do I feel so depleted?

When I have nothing to feel against it?

I can tell so many people are disappointed,

Yet I feel so calm when I sit.

I can feel it sleeping away,

As the time moves from January to May.

What did I do to earn this pain?

What do I do to be forgotten from this place?

I long to not be insane,

As long as someone doesn't hand me a mace.

I'm sorry,

For not being able to go on your safari.

I cannot provide an answer,

Even though I have all the answers that are needed.

I feel like I am dying from this emotional cancer,

Yet I can scream to the world, "I have succeeded!"

Would you like to hear a story?

About the girl who jumped off the third story?

She said it wasn't painful,

But she died not long after.

It's actually very peaceful,

How she happily moved onto life's next chapter.

I feel disconnected,

Unwanted,

Even though I feel complete,

Happy to be alive,

Rising like Wall Street,

Filing big like an external drive.

I don't feel very good.

Why must I feel so misunderstood?

I thank those who stay by my side,

Even if it isn't for long.

You tell me not to be like Jekyll and Hyde,

Gomawo and Annyeong.

A/N: One of my rare tries at rhyming, I'm sorry if it really hurts your head and heart to read the horrible rhyming, but I hope you like the poem just the same :D It has taken me ages to write this poem, as I keep getting rid of certain ideas and adding some more in. Please enjoy and share =]

P.S. The last line, "Gomawo and Annyeong", is the romantization of 고마워 and 안녕 , meaning Thank you and Goodbye.