Tomorrow, Today (COMPLETED)

Falling Stars

 "You've changed, huh?", JB tells Jinyoung when they are together at the fishing ground.

"In a good way, or bad way?", Jinyoung asks without turning his head to his hyung.

"I'd say a good way", JB back to watching his fishing rod, "You're more open to your feelings, you go out with us more often, and you share your feelings a lot. You're not as introvert and sulky and savage as before".

"Wait, is this a compliment? Because if it is, I don't know why I don't feel happy at all", Jinyoung pouts.

JB laughs, "No, seriously. I feel a lot of change here, you look happier also. It's something good".

JB sips his beer, watching the sun makes illumination on the tip of the water, "on the contrary, why am I not getting a hit at all".

Jinyoung laughs his heart our, "beginner's luck".

"How come you caught three and I got nothing yet? It's really strange".

"Maybe you're just lousy, hyung", Jinyoung mocks him, "you got none when you were here last time".

"Fish don't like me for sure".

Jinyoung laughs again.

"Ah, I don't care as long as I get to hear your laugh like that, I like it", JB sips his beer again, feeling a bit embarrassed for making cheesy comment.

Jinyoung smiles at his hyung, "you know, you're right. I've changed. I have to".

"I used to be a serious person, I thought about everything thoroughly, sometime I got caught in my own thoughts. It's not a bad thing, but there are times when I feel it's too heavy and I thought too much. I had irrelevant fears because of it, so I shut myself sometimes, making a barrier. I also set my standard high and I did everything to protect my image. I didn't want anyone to see my weakness. But during this fight, I see a lot of things differently. I have limited world now, unlike before. My world only revolves around me, my family, GOT7, the hospital. I also have lots of spare times, even though I spend most of it being sick. I begin to see in more detailed perspective. I am aware that I can not change anything and I have to accept my condition now. I am trying hard not to think about bad things, and rather than worrying, I am trying to emphazise on the good things. I wouldn't be able to survive if it wasn't because of everyone around me and I really really think that I have to work hard for everyone now. I can't thank you enough too, hyung. Because you are always by my side since day one, I can't imagine what it's like if I didn't have you at the first place".

Jinyoung reaches out to JB's free hand and holds it. JB is really touched by Jinyoung's words but he can't seem to find anything to reply the younger man. His vision is blurry as the tears now dwelling in his eyes.

"But still", the younger one turns his head back to his rod, but his hand is still holding the hyung's hand, "I think about the inevitable sometimes. I think about death, I think about I may be losing you all".

JB feels Jinyoung's grip tightens.

"If… If I can't make it…", Jinyoung's voice cracking, "I want you to know that you've done enough and it's all going to be okay".

JB can feel his throat is clogged now. He wants to say something, but he can't, he can't say anything. His fishing rod is shaking because his hand is.

Jinyoung lets his grip go, and he strokes JB's hair, "I love you hyung".

JB sobs really hard, he doesn't care anymore that he's in the middle of a fishing ground. His one hand is still clucthing his rod and the other hand is covering his crying face.