Endearment | komahina (COMPLETED)

A lonely world

Hajime P.O.V.

My eyes slightly opened, I could hear faint voices....I was a bit confused. How did I get here? And where exactly was I? Opening my eyes slightly more I came face to face with someone I didn't want to see.
"Hajime, are you up?" the white haired boy rolled his eyes and kicked up some sand close by. At least the sand wasn't directed at me. I ignored him and pretended I was asleep I really didn't want to be interacting with the boy who seemed to hate me for no reason at all.
"Okay, you know what your not my problem and I'm not dealing with someone who's talentless anyway." He muttered to himself and walked away and I couldn't have cared any less. I opened my eyes and my thoughts started to swallow me whole like they always did.

I still can't figure out why he's so mean to me. I've been trying for a while to find the exact reason but there just doesn't seem to be one. When I first got into hope's peak academy I noticed how no one seemed to talk to him or cared. People seemed to see through him like a ghost. But suddenly after the first couple months of school a group of boys seemed to be his best friends he seemed to get along great with them, they were accepting him. His whole personality seemed to drift it was strange but I didn't care much I didn't get along great with people anyway and he seemed like he could have been a potential friend but not anymore, not like the way he treats me now.

I sat up looking out where he was walking. I saw most of the other ultimates standing and talking, laughing to themselves. Honestly it was no surprise. I was never involved with anything they did, no one liked me. I got up off the ground wiping sand off my clothes. Walking in the direction of everyone else I turned my head to the side to see a strange pink blur.

I wiped around and saw Kazuichi standing there a little too happy.
"Oh, Hey hajime." He smiled widely. I felt out of place so I dumbly kept on walking and ignored him.
"Hajime wait up!" He called after me and I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"What?" I quietly asked slightly confused.
"I was just making sure you were okay." He stated.

"And why exactly would you care about that?" I looked down meeting my eyes with my shoes, I could never look anyone in the eyes.
"Because they sent Nagito to come get you, I mean I notice he bothers you. Is he bullying you by chance? With his little friend group at school?" Kazuichi had a concerned expression. I'd never talked to anyone much and I felt so weird having someone to talk to about this. I went though thoughts in my mind before I answered.

1.No he wasn't bullying me exactly, but he did pick on me, a lot.

2. Yes his friend group does bother me more than he seems too sometimes.

Of course instead of expressing how I've been tormented by that group of friends and the albino boy, I just answered with:
"No, he doesn't bother me that much." I tried to act confident but my "confident" tone in my head seemed to come out as a whisper.
"Okay good, I was just checking." He patted me on the back hard.
"I think we'll be good friends." He laughed and all I could process was the word "friend."

What it means to be a friend? Hanging out all the time and talking? Having a big group of friends to all go out and have fun with? I didn't have any of that and if I had one chance to have at least one friend I was gonna take it. We walked together back to the group of ultimates all standing around my eyes were still set on my shoes and I was looking at all the sand around the area.

"Hey Chiaki!" Kazuichi's toothy smile was set on a girl with short pastel pink hair. I lifted my head slightly, She was glued to her game and wasn't even looking up when talking to Kazuichi.
"Hey Kazuichi." Her tone was very small but she seemed friendly enough.
I put my head back down staring at my feet. It seemed to be one of the things I knew all too well. I noticed that my white shoes had a bit of sand on them from earlier.

"So Chiaki, this is hajime and he's my new friend." He patted me on the back hard again making me cough. I looked up and saw her fully instead of just a fuzzy shadow with pink hair.
"Oh hello." She smiled slightly and looked back at Kazuichi. Great another person who uses the half smile method on me. When people don't like me they will slightly smile instead of just normally smiling like anyone would. I stared back at my feet realizing I only had one new friend.

"Hello everyone!" Usami floated down with her little wand and stood where everyone was gathered. Sonia laughed and waved while her little group of friends did too.

I knew everyone's name and how everybody acted. But no one talked to me besides three people here. Usami went on about how each of us would be staying in our own little cottage, and we would be here for a month. Of course there was a catch, I mean it is a school trip and all. All my memory finally resolved itself and I forgot the reason we were here was for a school trip. The catch was that we would have to spend time with everyone and earn points. I wasn't interested in this whatsoever until I realized it was for a grade.

What was I gonna do? I hated interacting with people and especially people who didn't even acknowledge my existence.
Everyone began walking to the cottages. I stood there waiting for everyone to leave before me. Kazuichi started walking and stopped when I didn't Continue with him.

"Are you coming hajime?" I lifted my head up, Kazuichi's head was slightly tilted in confusion. I decided maybe it was nice to have a friend for a change. So I walked on with him my head looking back to my shoes. "Okay hajime, let's go find our Cottages and then we could go eat something or I could go find miss Sonia and then..." I let Kazuichi continue and I didn't mind.

I liked having someone to talk too it's been quite a long time since I've had a conversation with someone or just flat out listened to some one talk about stuff. Happiness, a feeling I hadn't felt in a while filled my head. All of that was good until I suddenly felt a slight stinging stare from the side of me. I looked over to see the green sea foam colored eyes looking back at me.

Oh yeah, I totally forgot about that.

He's here too.