So I'm just going to preface this by saying, I am actually dead rn. I'm laying in bed, wishing the pain in my feet would go away and that it didn't hurt to bend down and grab my soda (I would prefer tea, but it hurts too much to walk to the kitchen)...
Which, by the way, I stupidly put on the floor instead of on the windowsill next to me.
This day has been...something.
I started my lovely day at 5:55 am after I went to bed at like 2 am. I then proceeded to shower and shave (again after last night) and put my hair up in the highest ponytail I could muster. Then I ate my breakfast of a small, strawberry protein shake. Then I got clothed and put on makeup and fussed with my jewelry and accessories.
It was at this point that I left my apartment, felt nauseous, walked up the hill, and vomited up everything I ate.
Yeah, that was nice. At least I didn't get it on my shirt.
Then, I walked 30 minutes across campus to our basketball arena. Where, by the way, I was greeted with this sight:
Yeah, it was a room full of beautiful girls all wearing t-shirts and shorts and skirts and stuff. But hey, I'm going to try to stay as optimistic as I can. I just feel like I'm a duck out of water, since I'm competing with such amazing people.
That was from this morning for me.
I had chi omega as my first one, and it was super intimidating. They legit stood us in line in order by serial number (I was at the back btw, like second from last).
It was super odd too, because I walked in and they grabbed me while a bunch of the girls were clapping and singing songs. But, instead of grabbing just me like my pi chi said they would, they grabbed two of us. So like, I felt like I was having to compete against the other girl while I was talking?
Thankfully that didn't happen at any other sorority. But it was super intimidating to start that way. Because the entire time I was heading to my next sorority I was wondering if they were going to do that again.
But after XΩ things kind of got more fun for me. They grabbed me and talked to me one on one and I felt like I was having a real conversation. I talked about living abroad and traveling and scuba diving and fencing and engineering. It was super fun just being myself and I met some really cool people.
There were a few that I didn't mesh with so well, and I think they didn't quite understand my life experience, but others I really enjoyed.
I visited a total of 10 of these parties today. And let me tell you the truth. While it's super fun talking to the girls, the administrative stuff is annoying as heck.
Like, they line you up and you have to be crossed off a list multiple times. And then on top of that they have to scan your serial number, and, if you're at the back like I was, you have to walk (and then run) up and down the stadium stairs to get there. It's a lot on your feet, and when you do that from 7:30 - 21:10 like I did, it's a lot. It's a long day.
But you know, once you're done waiting and you're away from the pi chis being annoying (Because they're bouncing up and down like "smile girls"), it's great. I loved watching them open the curtains and seeing all the girls all dressed up in their outfits. I loved the clapping and the friendliness. You know, it's not necessarily the rush parties that are hard. They really want to get to know you. It's the seeing all of the other people that's hard.
I legit just told myself all day that it's like camp, and it fixed any issues. Because it was fun.
But I'm exhausted, plain and simple.
Like it does get hot and sweaty, and by the time I got home I could barely walk. I had to call someone to talk to, to ignore the pain of chafing and sore feet.
I can't walk without intense pain rn tbh. LOL.
I'm going to get to sleep in an almost extra hour tomorrow though, which I'm excited about. We start at 8:15 as opposed to 7:30 which is super. And there's only two more parties until we rank our choices.
We also find out which ones we're invited back to at 9:30 tomorrow night. Which, of course, I'll let y'all know. Since y'all are like amazing for being here for me and putting up for me and pulling for me.
I also should say thanks to ImberLapis specifically. I didn't comment on her works today even though I was thoroughly enjoying them as an emotional release. (Mostly because I've been kind of brain dead) But, I've been reading My Name is Loto as something to calm down through the day. If you haven't put it in your reading list, do so now.
That's it for today. Thanks for sticking with me through my journey y'all.