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Are You Missing Poison?

I know now what it means to be heartbroken,

Because without you here,

All chaos has been unleashed.

I'm not sure on what to do,

I often think of what you'd do,

But then I remember you aren't here anymore.

I miss you to say the least,

And no one quite understands,

But I've yet to reveal how it affected me.

Now, you may be absent from my life,

But never from my heart,

Because darling you left a mark.

I guess people are blowing things out of proportion,

And everyone keeps talking like you're not around,

But I know that spiritually you're still here.

The man upstairs,

He keeps telling me to let go,

But how am I suppose to do that?

I don't know how to deal with this,

These feelings and thoughts,

They've got me binded.

I can't get up.

I'm confused and scared,

And He just tells me to "Be still".

Apparently after all these months,

It still applies,

But part of me doesn't know how to sit still.

Too many things keep occuring,

And I can't keep up.

I do hope you've got yourself handled.

I continue to think about you,

Pray for you.

But that'll never undo the injustice I feel I've committed.

Somehow, even though I know deep down that it's not true,

My gut tells me it's all my fault.

That somehow it's my fault that you'd worsened.

He tells me it's not true,

That I'm not a a poison,

Like I believe I am.

But I just can't help thinking that,

After all we've been through,

I'm still just poison.

To anyone and everyone who come in contact,

I wish I could tear myself apart,

Unveil my colors and relinquish my feelings.