Chapter 75

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After a few days Abel and I were at the hospital with Lolita waiting for the doctor to come in, "mr. Tesfaye your daughters physical heath has increased significantly, she can be dismissed today." "Finally." Lolita says in relief, "however, someone has to be with her all time and make sure she has nothing that can harm her in her room." "Oh my god." Lolita groans rolling her eyes, "it's for the best Lo..." Abel says to her reassuringly. She rolls her eyes and lets her head fall back in annoyance, "lana can I talk to you outside for a second?" Abel asks me. I nod and go with him outside, "what's up?" I ask him, "Lana, would you take care of Lolita for a few days?" He asks me, "w-what?! Abel I can't-" "please Lana I have to go on tour with my client and I'm afraid if I leave her alone-" "I know...l-I'll do it." I say reluctantly, "Abel I'm just...nervous." I say to him looking up at him, "it'll be okay Lana, just I don't know, try to get along with her, be her friend I guess, and don't get fucking high or drunk." He says to me. I nod, "she'll miss you you know that..." I say to him, "I know I'll call her." He says to me. I nod and we go back into Lolita's room. Abel tells her what's going on and Lolita lets out a small sigh but expects it. Two hours later Lolita is getting ready to leave and she looks up at me expectantly. "Lolita," Abel says causing her to turn to him. She hugs him and he kisses her forehead, "be nice to Lana okay?" He says to her. She nods and lets go of him reluctantly then coming over to me. We walk towards the elevator quietly, "Lana?" "Hm?" "Can...can I meet my mom this week?" She asks me causing me to feel a bit guilty, "we'll see okay? Depends how you feel sweetie." I say to her. She sighs sadly, "it's okay honey we'll have a lot of fun okay?" I say to her. She smiles softly and nods. We get downstairs and head to my car. When we approach it Lolita gasps, "you have a fucking jaguar?!" She says excitedly causing me to chuckle, "yeah it's pretty cool." I say smiling at her, "fuck yeah it is, it's fucking amazing! I've always wanted a jaguar!" Lolita says opening the door and getting in excitedly. I giggle a bit and get in the car. I drive us back to Abel's house so Lolita could get some clothes and whatever else she needed. When she came back I drove us back to my house. "Okay Lo I'm gonna go make sure the guest room is all ready for you okay? You can look around or whatever, sorry about all the boxes and shit I just moved in here a few months ago." I say to her. She says okay and I go upstairs to fix up her room and to make sure there was nothing she could use to, hurt herself. I come back down and see Lolita at the piano I had in the living room playing my song video games and humming the lyrics, "I love that song." I say causing her to jump, "shit Lana you scared me." She says giving me a small smile, "yeah I-your mom wrote it a long time ago, she told me she wrote it about this same fucking guy, she wrote a few more songs off of born to die about him too, your mom was hopelessly in love with him, but he didn't love her." "Was that dad?" I chuckle slightly, "no, he was a little after." "Dad says she was with him when she was younger was that true?" "Yeah, but they weren't together for real for a long time, she didn't love him because she was scared but he loved her for a long time." "Why was she scared?" Lolita asks me catching me off guard, "why don't we go upstairs so I can show you your room-" "Lana, what happened?" Lolita asks me grabbing my wrist stopping me as I get off the piano bench, "I think your mom would be the one to tell you Lo..." I say to her grabbing her hand gently, "when can I meet her Lana?" Lolita asks me. I scratch the back of my neck nervously, "soon Lolita I promise," Lolita sighs, "please Lana I've waited so long, "I know honey please just...wait a little longer, please, for me?" Lolita lets out a small sigh and nods and I hug her, "thank you, your moms just nervous you know? She really does want to see you but she's scared." "Why?" "She doesn't want to fuck shit up with you." I say to her, "now come on, let me show you your room you can see your mom in a few days I promise." I say to her smiling. She nods and follows me upstairs. I open the door to her room and bring her inside, "so this is it." I say to her, "woah Lana, it's fucking huge!" Lolita says as she plops on the queen sized bed giggling like a little girl, "hey, come here honey." I say gesturing to the bathroom, "oh my god Lana!" She squeals as she looks at the jet tub and fancy toilet. "It's the fucking nicest bathroom oh my god!" I laugh and hug her, "this is so cool Lana oh my god!" "I hope you'll be happy here." I say to her happy. She smiles and nods hugging me.
-a few days later-
-Lolita-
Lana and I are playing monopoly in her room and she was currently winning. We were talking and laughing and listening to our music and it's really fun. Lana gets a call and looks at her phone, "it's your dad I'll be back." Lana says to me leaving her room as she takes the call. I get up and begin snooping, curiosity getting the best of me. I look in a box of pictures and see a picture of my dad and Lana. His arms are around her and she's smiling holding his arm around her, so they were friends that's cute... I think to myself as I continue to look. I see another picture of Lana and a blonde girl, Lana seems younger than she did in the last picture. I see another one framed and pick it up seeing Lana and my dad kissing causing me to gasp slighting. I then find another one of her and my dad, his arm around her and Lana was pregnant. "Holy fuck..." I gasp, "Sorry sweetie, nothings wrong your dad was just checking on you, he said he's gonna call you later." "Lana," "hm?" "What...what went on with you and my dad?" "What?" She asks nervously, "yeah...I-I found this picture of you and dad together-" "w-which one?" She asks me, "all of them Lana." I look at her expectingly, "L-Lolita...I-I'm your mom." Lana says to me. I feel tears escaping my eyes as I look at her, "Lana w-why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you stay? Do...do you even love me? Did you ever love me?" I ask her as I begin to cry, "let me explain baby, I love you, I've always loved you Lo!" She says coming over to me, "don't fucking lie Lana." She looks at me hurt, but I didn't care. She hurt me first. "You know how much you fucking hurt me?! Do you Lana?! If my own mom wouldn't want me who would? I don't trust anyone, why would they stay? That's why I just fuck around so I don't ever get my heart broken..." I say falling apart, "why didn't you tell me Lana?" I ask her looking up at her. "I didn't think it was the right time honey..." "You wanted me to get better then tell me the truth? When I'd find out you're lying what reaction did you expect? The perfect happy family? I suppose you thought dad would forgive you too?" I stare at her angrily and she just stares back, "don't think that's okay do you?" "Baby...I didn't want to tell you because...I didn't want to stay..." "w-what..?" That moment I get my heart shatter, "y-you're leaving again..?" "Lo-" "n-no leave me alone!" I say, "Lolita!" Lana calls out. I run to my room and slam the door behind me, "baby please let me talk to you!" Lana says through the door. She was crying too.
-Lana-
"Fuck!" I yell out loud to get rid of some of my emotions. My tears fall faster as I go to my room. I close my bathroom door and go through my bathroom closet finding my coke. I set it up on my sink and snort a few lines.
-a few days later-
-Lolita-
I go into Lana's room and see her sprawled out on her bed passed out. I look at her and see her shirts lifted up slightly and see discoloration marks on her skin. I grow concerned and lift her shirt a bit more seeing more scars on her, "what are you doing?" Lana asks me getting up, "wh-what happened..?" I asked her, "I was abused when I was younger." She answers as she gets up, "we should probably get going baby..." Lana says grabbing her keys. Her eyes are sunken in and her hair was messed up, "lana are you alright?" I ask her, "I'm fine let's go..." she mumbles as we head downstairs.
-Lana-
I pull up to the house, "you want me to walk you in?" I ask Lolita, "if you want." She mumbles. I nod and we get out of the car walking quietly up the stairs to the house. When we get in Lolita gives me a hug thanking me for letting her stay with me and ran upstairs. When she leaves I look to Abel, "how was she?" He asks me leaning against the kitchen counter, "she was great, loved having her." I say to him. He gives me a small smile and nods, "thank you for letting me have her for a week Abel it means a lot..." I say to him, "did you tell her?" He asks me, "she found out..." I say looking away from him slightly, "fuck, how?" We we're hanging out in my room, and she found a picture of us." I say to him, "you should've just told her Carmen..." Abel says shaking his head, "I fucking know okay?! I wasn't trying to let her know and I just wanted to tell her at the right time." He sighs, "I need to go check on her, you should go..." he says. I nod and he goes upstairs. I go into the living room and look around the living room and see pictures of Abel and Lolita hanging out at different places and I feel a bit sad I couldn't share the joy they had in the photos. I wish I got to tell Lolita why, I didn't want her to see me getting fucked up and drunk and high, I can't stop and I didn't want her to start because of me. I sigh and leave.

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