a/n: sorry about the last chapter and this chapter, they're both total shit. i plan on editing them once my batshit crazy cousin leaves because she's making it difficult to focus on writing, sorry again if the next few chapters are terrible
Side effects were something I've gotten used to, the word rolled off my tongue so easily. With all the medication I had been prescribed most of my life I had gotten used to reading the labels on the bottles or having to list off the side effects of certain medication like it was my favorite book. The list of medications I've been on since I was little had changed a lot but I never did, I never felt any happier or calmer. None of the pills I swallowed did their job, but maybe it's just me. I remember the first time I took the pills when I was three, they caused my quirk to go haywire and make it stronger but harder to control. I didn't know what was happening at all though, I was just in pain and scared.
My parents abused that, they forced me to take those terrible sickening red pills every day. That's how I got into UA, that's how I ranked top on everything. Those stupid pills. I hated them, I hated my parents, I hated the doctors, I hated everything. When I stepped into UA on my first day, it didn't feel right. I didn't earn my place here, I stole it. I knew that everything I've done had nothing to do with my actual raw quirk or physical strength it had to do with those stupid pills. Everyone tried to be friend's with me and ignored my attempts to push them away, Izuku Midoriya was the one who stood out the most.
I finally gave into everyone's past failed mistakes at being my friend and formed a strong friendship with pretty much everyone in the class. It felt nice to not be so alone, my parents told me that friends would get in the way of my training and I would become useless. I never went against their words no matter how much I wanted to because I knew the consequences. Every time I did something that went against what they had said or something they didn't like, they upped my dosage. I was scared enough of taking the regular amount so taking more definitely wouldn't be good.
No one knew about my secret, that was until someone walked in on me forcing myself to throw up the pills. I had taken three when I usually take two, the pain was unbearable and I couldn't take it. It was still early in the morning so I thought I would be fine but I was wrong, oh so very wrong. The girls' bathroom started to flood with the girls since breakfast had apparently started a few minutes ago, I stared at Uraraka who had been the first to see me with my fingers down my throat.
I quickly shut the stall door and wrapped up my little session, cleaning up after. I knew how bad I looked, I had been crying because of the pain so I didn't get any sleep and I did just make myself throw up. I opened the stall door and hurried out of the bathroom, come on just get to my dorm. Today just wasn't my day though, on my way to my dorm I ran into Izuku. "Hey, Y/N-Oh my, are you okay?!" He asked and grabbed my shoulders to look at my face better.
I looked back at the elevator and saw Uraraka and Tsuyu coming towards us as well, "Y/N, what's going on?" Uraraka asked in a concerned tone.
I inched closer to Izuku and started to shake, I was too unstable to be pressured like this. "I-I'm sorry." I choked out and tried to hide the tears, the back of my throat starting to burn worse than before. "I don't deserve to be here." I muttered and sunk to my knees but Izuku grabbed me and stabilized me.
He stared at my face to search for answers, "What? What are you talking about, you totally deserve to be here!" He said with such a positive voice that it made me break down even more. I moved my hand to my pocket and pulled out the bottle of pills.
I fiddled with the cap and let out a shaky sob, "I'm only here because of these." I opened the cap and got two of the pills. "They-they make my quirk stronger, I was making myself throw up earlier because they hurt so much." I stared at the red pills in my shaking hands and felt my stomach churn at the thought of taking them again.
Uraraka grabbed the bottle from my hand and Tsuyu picked up the cap. "Why are you taking them if they hurt so much?" Izuku asked and rubbed my arms slightly.
I clenched my fists, barely crushing the pills. "My parents are forcing me to, they have been since I was little." I sighed and wrapped my arms around Izuku, he was my closest friend at UA so hugging him wasn't new or anything. I loved his hugs, he was always so warm and his scent was comforting. "I-I'm sorry." I whispered.
He shook his head and smoothed out my messy hair, "You don't have to be sorry, Y/N. You don't have to take those pills anymore either, you're strong without them." He whispered to me as he watched Uraraka tell Tsuyu to go show Aizawa and ask what they were. "We're gonna protect you from them, I'll protect you from them. Don't worry."
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i love all the bnha characters i just had to write a book for them requests are open (regular chapters are on hold but still taking & writing requests) . . . . Date of Drafting : 04-07-19 Date of Publishing : 07-15-19 Date of Completion : N/A