Tomorrow, Today (COMPLETED)

The Help

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Jinyoung is standing on stage, singing Thank you. Thousands of fans are cheering loud and waving their Ahgabongs according to the music.
Jinyoung feels really happy, his voice sounds clear and he can see the ocean of green light filling the arena. Some fans are holding banners and posters of GOT7 members.

He was born to do this, Jinyoung realizes. This is the moment that he always longs to. The sensation of singing under the spotlight, making people smiles and touching people's heart with songs and performances. There's no better feeling compared to this. The bond he shares with his members and the fans is mutual and it makes his heart warm.
Jinyoung feels his heart is going to explode with joy and happiness, he enjoys concert the most because during this time, he gets to meet all the fans. Eventhough he is not good at expressing himself, unlike Jackson, but he feels like his feeling conveys. The fans know he loves them eventhough he doesn't say it.
The music is suddenly fading, Jinyoung turns his head to see other GOT7 members but they sing like nothing happens. Jinyoun sees Mark smiling at him softly. Slowly, Jinyoung feels like he's being dragged away form the stage by unseen hands. The members are watching him, smiling at him but their expression is blank. Jinyoung gets really confused. He looks at the audience who are standing still now, ahgabongs still lit but no movement. The music is now unheard, the spotlight is dimmed. Jinyoung tries to say something but his mouth sealed. He choked when he suddenly realize that he's standing on the edge of the stage.
Jinyoung is terrified now as he can’t see the bottom of the stage. He can only see darkness below his feet. He suddenly remembers Fly music video where he jumped from a tall building. He feels the urge to jump too, but he doesn't know why. Suddenly, something is pushing him down and he falls. Jinyoung tries to scream but his throat is hitched, nothing comes from his mouth no matter how hard he tries. He is sucked into a dark pit. Hee keeps on falling and falling without knowing where or when he will stop. Jinyoung coleses his eyes, the darkness is swallowing him more, he can't see anything, he can't hear anything, he can't feel anything. When he feels like he's ready to succumb to the darkness, pairs of hand are appearing before him, pulling him to the surface. It's like Hard Carry video where his friends are pulling him out of  the freezing water.
"Jinyoung-ah", Jinyoung can hear someone is calling him from above. The sound is faint.
"Jinyoung-ah, are you awake?", the voice is louder and louder everytime his body is being pulled closer to the surface. The voice is surprisingly familiar.
Jinyoung tries to open his eyes but it's too bright, Jinyoung squints his eyes and blinking several times.
"Jinyoung ah, open your eyes now", funny, the voice is so much like Jackson's.
"That's it, open your eyes my friend".
Slowly Jinyoung feels his senses are coming back to him. His head feels heavy and his body is aching all over. His throat is burning and uncomfortable. And what is it so itchy on his nose? Jinyoung try to get rid of it when someone swats his hand away, "no, no, leave it. It's helping you to relax".
Jinyoung opens his eyes slowly, he is greeted by Jackson's worried face.
"Oh thank Goodness you're awake. I'm going to call your mom, okay?", Jackson pats Jinyoung's hand and goes off.
Jinyoung looks around him, everything is still blurry to him. Apparently he's still in his room. What's different is that he has IV pole beside his bed, he feels tight in the back of his left hand, must be the IV needle. The itchy thing on his nose is probably nasal cannula, he used it when he was in the hospital too. Jinyoung begins to notice unfamiliar sensation on his finger and he lifts it only to find pulse oximeter is attached to one of his finger.
He doesn't recall what has happened. The last thing he could remember is feeling thirsty and then he fell down.
Did something else happen?
"Jinyoung ah", Jinyoung's mom comes in in a rush, Jackson is following behind him, "finally you're awake, dear".
A stranger follows them in, Jinyoung is confused. He's more confused when the big guy begins to check his vitals.
"Water", Jinyoung whispers. His throat is killing him when he speaks.
"Oh sorry, sorry", Jackson says, "I was so happy you open your eyes I forgot to give you water".
Jackson helps Jinyoung to get up and props the pillow supporting Jinyoung's body. He's so weak he just lets Jackson do all the effort. Jinyoung's mom hands him a glass of water with straw which Jinyoung begin to drink gratefully. The water feels like ice cooling his throat.
"What happened?", he asks, his voice is barely audible.
"You were unconscious and had a really high fever", Jinyoung's mom explains, her eyes worried, "luckily Jaebumie was here so he called dr Song immediately. He came and hooked you up with everything. This is nurse Gwan who is going to help us for a while until your condition is stronger".
Oh so the stranger Jinyoung saw earlier is a nurse.
"Jaebum hyung?"
"He went back to his apartment, he was here for two days straight", Jackson tells him, "He didn't want to leave you but I told him to get some rest. I'm free today so I think it's better to take a shift...".
"Shift?", Jinyoung still can't process Jackson's words, his head is still heavy like it's being stuffed with bricks and his mouth feels weird, like he just swallowed a big chunk of cotton ball.
"Something like that, don't worry bout it too much", Jackson gives Jinyoung a big smile, "you're awake, that's the most important. Are you hungry? You slept through the day, you must be hungry".
Jinyoung suddenly sense his stomach growling. He spent his night vomiting and he hasn't ate anything since then, so yeah his stomach is empty.
Jinyoung's mom turns her head to the nurse now checking the IV, "can he eat?".
"Sure", the big guy smiles. Jinyoung looks at the nurse closer. He looks like a good guy. He's still young, maybe same age as their manager, "it's better if he can eat to regain his stregth. His vitals is strong and stable. Maybe dr Song will allow him to be released from the IV if there's no other complication".
Jinyoung's mom smiles, "I already cooked you a delicious porridge. Just wait here Jinyoung ah".
She and nurse Gwan excuse themselves.
"Don't you remember what happened?", Jackson asks him, holding his hand carefully while trying to avoid the IV tubing,"do you know what day this is?".
Jinyoung shakes his head slowly, every move makes his head spinning even more.
"I remember puking... then I got thirsty. Hey can you give me more water?".
Jackson immediately fetch the glass and give it to Jinyoung. Jinyoung sips the water greedily.
"Wait wait, don't drink so fast. You have to drink slow", Jackson tells him. Jinyoung empty the glass in no time and feels a little bit stronger. He's happy that the water stays in his stomach. The nausea is still persistent, but it's much better now Jinyoung almost can't feel it.
"It's Wednesday morning, you've been asleep since yesterday morning".
Wow, no wonder Jinyoung feels like crap.
Jinyoung's mom enters the room bringing a tray, "eat it while it's still hot".
She puts the tray in front of Jinyoung, the porridge is still smoking but it looks really delicious. Jinyoung remembers his mom often cooked him porridge when he got sick as a child. Jinyoung's mom scoops the porridge to smaller bowl and lets it cool down.
"Can I take this thing off?", Jinyoung points at the cannula in his nose, "it's itchy and annoying".
He yanks it off and scratches his nose.
"You better put that thing on after eating", Jackson comments, "you have to appreciate pure oxygen flowing to your lungs".
"Shut up and just let me eat, I'm hungry".
Jinyoung tries to hold the spoon but his hands is shaking so hard it's irritating.
"Ya, what are you doing?", Jackson scolds him, "lay back and let me do the job. You haven't ate anything, you have no energy! Eomonni, let me take care of him".
Jinyoung grins, "why are you so mad? And why do you think I'll let you feed me like a child?".
"Hey, are we same age friend or not? You are allowed to look uncool in front of me, quit the acting already. I'm still a half year older than you! That means, you have to do what I say", Jackson scoops a spoonful of porridge and present it in front of Jinyoung, "now open your mouth like a good kid".
As much as Jinyoung hates to be babysit, his stomach is growling asking to be fed. He has no option than to do what Jackson orders. Jackson will never leave until he eats anyway.
Jackson smug expression is lit after Jinyoung takes a bite. His eyes are sparkling.
"Atta boy, that's my boy... aaw uri Jinyoungie gwiyeobda.. ", Jackson pinch Jinyoung's cheek.
Jinyoung laughs, "stop it, or I won't eat the second bite".
"Oh he laughed! Did you see that eomonni?", Jackson jumps like a kid. Jinyoung's mom laughs seeing him acting childish.
Jackson continues feeding Jinyoung the porridge and making excited noise everytime Jinyoung finishes one bite. The porridge bowl is half empty when Jinyoung decide he's had enough.  Jinyoung feels a whole lot better after eating. Or is it because of Jackson's cheerful attitude brightens up Jinyoung's mood?
"Now put your oxygen back", Jackson orders him right away after Jinyoung finishes his meal.
"Shireo", Jinyoung whines, "it's itchy".
"Why do you always argue with me?", Jackson counters him, "listen to me. Your body had experience something uncomfortable, you have to give it time to rest. Oxygen flow will allow your body to relax, it makes your organs to work easier. It will let you heal faster".
Jinyoung rolls his eyes, Jackson and his health talk.
"What's with those eyes? You don't trust me, do you?", Jackson sulks.
"Who said I don't. I just don't like wearing it. It feels weird".
"Park Jinyoung still looks handsome in nasal cannula, if that's your concern", Jackson blurts, "ya, you can even wear chicken hat and still looking awesome!".
Jinyoung laughs.
"Why are you laughing, I'm saying the truth. Now put this on or I'm going to shove it to your nose".
Jinyoung finally succumb, he unwillingly puts the cannula back with Jackson's help. Jinyoung does feel lighter once he has the oxygen flowing to his lungs.
"Do you feel tired? Do you want to get some sleep? I can sing you lullaby", Jackson offers and he starts to sing, "Sweet talk to me babe, it's magical".
Jinyoung laughs again, Jackson is always able to make him laugh.
"I thought you told me that I was sleeping constantly for a whole day? I'm not sleepy yet.. Anyway, I thought I heard something about shift.. or something like that?".
Jackson sighs, "why do you have to hear about it? You were so weak and you were just waking up? How is it possible that you could hear what I was saying?"
"Why? Are you guys up to something?", Jinyoung is curious.
"Me and my stupid mouth", Jackson slaps his own mouth.
"Wae? Wae? Is it something that I shouldn't know?".
Jackson sighs, he has decided to tell Jinyoung form the start because he knows the younger guy would be suspicious, "okay, so we all feel uneasy to leave you alone only with your mom. We don't even feel good to leave you with manager hyung. So we decided that we all take turn to watch over you. Only as long as we have free time".
Jinyoung's face frowns, "you mean, you guys take turn to babysit me?".
Jinyoung is clearly annoyed with the idea, but having extra oxygen in his system definitely helps him to stay calm. He starts to suspect Jackson made him to put the oxygen on so Jinyoung wouldn't be too furious.
"Why do you always take everything negatively? We've been with you for almost a decade now. We are the ones who know every details of your body beside your family. We've seen your good and bad times. Don't you feel easier if you just let us help instead of just random stranger? We heard about the caregiver thing JYP hyung suggested and we're quite sure you wouldn't agree. Look, if another incident like yesterday happened and you're just being alone with your mother, she would just freak out. Lucky JB hyung was here yesterday. Can you imagine otherwise? That's why we decided to step in. Only if we have to, don't worry. We won't bother you if you have your dad around, or if we have works to do. We just want to make sure there's someone to look out for you especially after chemotherapy".
Jinyoung is still reluctant with the idea, but he can't help but feeling touched to the attention given by his members. He didn't think they would do such things for him.
"I know maybe you hate the idea, you like to be alone and everything. But we just can't leave you alone. And we want to be involved in your treatment process. We are not like other groups who only think about business. We are family, and everything about us is real. We want to make sure of it. You are our dongsaeng, our hyung. Everyone wants to help you".
Jinyoung tries hard not to cry listening to Jackson's words. Jackson is usually more emotional than Jinyoung. He usually cries before everyone does. But this time, his face is calm and his sentences are coming out more firm than usual.
"Don't tell Jaebum hyung I told you this, he would kill me", Jackson adds.
Speaking of the leader, Jinyoung suddenly snaps, "what about Jaebum hyung? Is he okay? Shit, I made him worried, didn't I?".
"Yea he's pretty worried", Jackson answers honestly, "he didn't want to leave your side. When I got here, he was just sitting beside you, holding your hand. You were delirious, and your fever's very high. I had to persuade him to go home and get some rest before he falls sick himself. All of the members want to be here, but I told them not to. Mark hyung is pretty furious, if he didn't have schedule this morning, he would've come here".
"Don't say that you make everyone worried", Jackson threats Jinyoung when he sees the younger man's face, "and never.. never say that you're a burden. Because you're not. You're the one who always takes care of us when we are sick, so we're just returning the favor. Drop your stoic act and just be true to us, we don't care. I know you are used to be the role model, you still are, and you will forever be our role model. But we like you because of who you really are and we'll be happier if you could be more honest. You can whine, you can sulk, you can cry. Whatever. We'll always be here".
Jackson pats Jinyoung's head slowly, "don't cry. Your snot will enter the cannula".
Jinyoung laughs.