Tomorrow, Today (COMPLETED)

Agony

"Because this is the second chemo, is it possible thay the body will make some sort of tolerance to the side effect of the drugs?", JB ask the nurse while Jinyoung is being prepped for the chemo.
The nurse looks at him sympathetically, "I'm sorry sweety. The residue of the drugs accumulating in his system may make him feel the side effect even faster than the first one".
"Oh", JB feels regret asking. He looks at Jinyoung who gives him blank expression.
"Ok, are you ready for your second chemo?", the nurse asks. Jinyoung nods because what else can he do?
He could ask for no chemo but he still has to do it anyway. No option here, Nurse-nim.
"Tell me if you feel something uncomfortable. I already prepare a bucket if you want to throw up, just under your bed. If it becomes overwhelming, just give me a call, I'll consult dr Song to increase your anti emetic drug".
Oh geez, thanks for mentioning it because apparently, Jinyoung feels nauseaus already seeing the orange liquid dripping slowly to his veins. The nurse pats the back of Jinyoung's hand and excuse herself. 
"Did she just basically say that I'm going to barf real soon?", Jinyoung asks, a bit annoyed.
"Don't think about that too much", JB answers, "just think of me being here".
Jinyoung smiles widely hearing the cocky comment of the hyung, "but really, is it okay for you to be here? I mean.. Don't you have something else to do? Your job? Making music? What if I do barf, it's going to be nasty".
"Ya, didn't you hear me? Don't think too much, babo", JB smacks Jinyoung's head lightly, "Schedule clearance, remember? We are given some free times for a while to avoid the press. I don't feel like making music right now so I have nothing to do. Besides, your father and sisters have to go back to Jinhae for work, you have only your mother. I'm the best option you've got.  Well, unless you agree for a caregiver JYP hyung suggested. I'm pretty sure you don't want a stranger to touch you".
Jinyoung shivers at the thought of it. JYP had suggested Jinyoung for a caregiver who is going to be ready for him 24/7 in the house. But somehow Jinyoung is still skeptical with the idea. jB is right, Jinyoung won't be comfortable with stranger.
Other option is to send one of their manager to help him, the second idea Jinyoung likes it better. But the manager he's requested is outta town until next week. This week, he initially planned to try and handle the things alone. He was surprised though when JB suddenly appeared outside of his house that morning. Jinyoung objected, but he still couldn't hide his wide smile. He let the hyung accompany him anyway.
JB opens his bag and pulls out a tin box out.
"What is that?", Jinyoung asks.
"Oh you're going to love it. I got it from our concert in Sydney. Just got time to unpack it recently and I love it, you would too. It's a card game called Timeline", JB opens the box and shows Jinyoung the content, Jinyoung looks at him with full interest.
JB draws some cards from the deck,  "I have decks of cards here. Side A contains pictures and the title of it, can be movies or songs. Side B contains what year they're released. So we create a timeline here. I give you.. say..random 6 cards and I will leave one card open here, side B so you can see the year".
JB puts a card with Britney Spears on it.
"So as you can see here, Baby One More Time by Britney Spears was released in 1998".
JB distributes 6 cards to Jinyoung.
"Don't see the side B", he explains, "You have 6 random cards with you, but you can't see the year it's released. Your job, is to guess the timeline. For example, I have E.T card. If i think E.T was released before Baby One More Time, i have to put the card in the left side. If i think it's released after Britney, I have to put it on the right side. But if I got it wrong, I have to draw one more card from the deck".
"Oh interesting", Jinyoung looks at the cards on his hand. He and JB both have the same interest on old music and movies so he feels the game really suits them.
"Right? I know you'd be interested", JB smiles proudly of himself.
"Well it's definitely better than reading the newspaper", Jinyoung grins.
It's been three days after their press conference and newspapers and magazines are still writing about it. The reaction is huge, but it's much bigger than they expected. Hashtag Jinyoung and GOT7 took the SNS by storm, it's trending to this minute. GOT7 member's personal SNS is filled with messages from the fans and also their celebrity coleagues to the extent they have to mute their motification. Jinyoung's Instagram is filled with millions of mentions, messages from the fans. The attention doesn't stop there. Hundreds of flowers and packages are being sent to JYP office everyday from the fans and celebrities, wishing Jinyoung to get well soon. All members of GOT7 are overwhelmed with the situation they never imagine would happen. Jinyoung himself had to give his cellphone to the manager because it never stops ringing. The manager then gave him another cellphone. Only few people in the contact list, including JYP, GOT7 members, Jinyiung'w family and physician, and some staffs from division 2 who are responsible for Jinyoung and GOT7. Jinyoung added some of his closest friends to the list but not much. He doesn't want too much attention. Wonpil from Day6 gave him a call after the press conference, he didn't say much. Jinyoung was sure that Wonpil was holding back his tears. Wonpil promised to visit Jinyoung once their recording is over and Jinyoung said to take it easy because he won't go anywhere. Jinyoung could hear Wonpil's sobbing before closing the call.
After the press conference, JYPE building isn't the same. Even the staffs are being followed by journalists and paparazzis are lurking around the building trying to find any sighting of Jinyoung or GOT7. Fans are also seen coming in groups, most of them are crying. JYPE had to make strict rules for the fans and journalists before it gets too inconvenient.
GOT7 member themselves don't come to the office after the press conference to avoid the media and fans. JYP had arrange their schedule so they wouldn't have to come to the building for at least two weeks. AmeriThaiKong team also had their schedule modified, they are staying in Korea. The management thinks they would be followed by journalists from Korea and from their country if they go outside of Korea.
All members of GOT7 had agreed to the new adjustment without complain because they also feel it's the best for them and for Jinyoung.
Back to the white room where Jinyoung is receiving his chemo, an hour has passed when he feels bile is rising. Jinyoung tries to hold it down but then he gags. Fortunately, JB sees the signal and he quickly fetch the bucket under the bed. Jinyoung painfully retching his gut out for solid 30 minutes while JB comforting him, stroking his back. He calls the nurse who comes in immediately. The nurse injects something to Jinyoung's IV, "it'll help him a little". It does. Not long after given the injection, Jinyoung stomach finally settles down.   But he is shivering so hard and he's feeling dizzy. The nurse hooks him up with nasal cannula, delivering oxygen to help him ease. Jinyoung falls asleep in an instant, and finally JB can take a deep breath. He decides to play the Timeline by himself only a few minutes before Jinyoung abruptly gets up because the nausea comes back.
"Can't you increase the dosage of the anti emetic?", JB asks the nurse when she comes back in. Jinyoung is still throwing up.
"I'm sorry, I think it's the maximum dosage the doctor allowed", she says, "I suggest fomentation to help reduce the stomach cramp. That's all I can give you".  
When he's done, Jinyoung looks so pale and weak. He slumps to the bed, unable to say anything, his throat is sore, and his whole body hurts. He shivers hard even under the thick blanket the nurse draped over him. Jinyoung feels cold and hot at the same time and he's sweating.
The nurse comes in with wet clothes to wipe Jinyoung's sweat and JB takes the responsibility.
"Hyung, mian", Jinyoung murmurs, his eyes closed, "you should have not come here".
"What are tou talking about, I'm the leader. I'm suppose to take care of you it's my job", JB responds softly while wiping Jinyoung's sweat.
"Hyung, hold my hand please?", Jinyoung pleads, "I feel like I'm going to fall from this bed". Even when he closes his eyes, Jinyoung feels very dizzy. 
JB reaches for Jinyoung's clammy hand under the blanket, "don't worry Jinyoung ah, hyung is here. How about you try to get some sleep, okay. I will be here holding your hand".
Three and a half hours of chemo feels like eternity for both Jinyoung and JB. There's no incident after the second episode, but Jinyoung's body and mind is a mess. It takes 20 minutes before Jinyoung is sure he can get up without vomiting, and another 20 minutes in the car before Jinyoung is sure he can manage to be in the moving vehicle. JB keeps on holding Jinyoung's hands tight and trying to soothe the younger one. Jinyoung's body is aching all over, every bump on the road he can feel it. And everytime his stomach would roll. Jinyoung somehow manage not to throw up inside of the car. But he throw up right away when they get off  the car. He kneels down the bush in front of the house throwing up whatever he has left in his stomach.
He can't even stand up after that, JB has to carry him inside.
Never in their times together JB witnessed Jinyoung in this kind of state. Even when he was diagnosed with swine flu back in the early days of GOT7, Jinyoung was never this weak and clingy. JB is glad he's around, he can't imagine Jinyoung being alone at the house only with his mother.
Jinyoung's mother already prepared blankets and she turned the heater on. She helps JB to settle Jinyoung to the bed, not an easy task because Jinyoung is shivering so hard.
"Hyu..hyung...", Jinyoung calls JB softly. His eyes are still closed.
He's probably delirious, he just calls JB because all of these years, JB is the one who is really close to him so his subconscious recall JB as the one who gives him comfort.
"Wae, Jinyoung ah?", JB moves himself closer to Jinyoung. The younger guy doesn't answer so JB only holds his hand.
Jinyoung's vomiting episode continues throughout the night, everyone has to move their quarter to the toilet because eveytime they try to shift Jinyoung back to the room, his stomach would roll and the vomiting would start again. JB rubs Jinyoung's back throughout the episode and wipes his nape with warm towel. Jinyoung's mom brings him ginger drink but only smelling it makes Jinyoung puking again. It's already dawn when the vomiting finally stops, but Jinyoung is already in a miserable state. He is lying down the bathroom floor with blanket covering his motionless body. His face is as white as the tile but his eyes are swollen and red. His jawbone is sticking out even more because he's lost weight.
JB rests his head on toilet wall, he's very tired and sleepy but he has to be ready whenever Jinyoung needs him.
The sun is almost rising when Jinyoung's mom calls JB slowly to ask him to move Jinyoung to the bed, "he's sweating so much, I'm going to change his clothes and clean him. I already cooked soup for you too so you better eat. You haven't ate anything since last night, have you?".
JB nods and shifts to Jinyoung.
"Jinyoung ah, let's get you to the bed. We need to clean you up", JB shakes Jinyoung's body but the later only whimpers softly.
"Ok, I'll carry you.. Hyung will be careful, I promise".
With his last energy, JB carries Jinyoung from the bathroom floor to his bed where Jinyoung's mom is waiting. JB gets out from the room while Jinyoung's mom changes Jinyoung's clothes. The smell of the cooking invades his nostril and he automatically feels very hungry. He hasn't eat anything since yesterday and he starts to feel the hunger.
JB heads to the kitchen to prepare himself some breakfast.
The kitchen is warm, thanks to Jinyoung's mom who turned on the heater, it looks freezing outside. JB wonders when can he see the first snow falling. JB likes winter, he enjoys  the peaceful sight of snow falling outside of his window while sipping warm coffee and reading his books. Jinyoung likes it too, they have a lot in common. Sometimes they would just exchange books they have finished reading and give each other recommendation.
A trail of tears is falling to JB's cheek. He was so sure Jinyoung could endure whatever this is. He was so confident, because he knew Jinyoung is the strongest member of GOT7. That's why he is the mother of the group. JB was sure Jinyoung would fight hard to keep his promise to GOT7, to Ahgase and to himself. What he didn't know was how much Jinyoung would suffer. Of course he already read all articles about cancer and chemo, but experiencing the effect with his own eyes is a whole lot different. The first chemo was hard, but Jinyoung still managed, and it wasn't as severe as this one. This is something else and JB suddenly questions everything. He doesn't want Jinyoung to give up, but he cant bear seeing Jinyoung in pain either. Jinyoung is the most important person in JB's life beside his parent, a little brother he always wanted, he can't bear the thought of his dongsaeng suffering.
A pair of warm hand hugs JB from behind.
"My son, don't cry.. I'm sorry you have to see Jinyoung in that state. I'm sorry I'm such a weak mother I can't take care of my own son myself. You must be tired, my son", Jinyoung's mother hugs JB tight, her voice a little shaking.
"Eomonni...", JB sobs, "I thought I could be a stronger leader.. I'm sorry".
Jinyoung's mom takes a seat in front of JB and she looks at JB's face with affection. The handsome man in front of him is still sobbing. The beautiful mom caress JB's hair softly, "my son.. you are the greatest leader anyone could ever wanted. I can't thank you enough for everything you have given Jinyoung.. It must be hard on you too".
Jinyoung's mom holds JB's hands, "I understand if you don't want to.."
"No, please..", JB cuts Jinyoung's mom before she can finish her sentence, "please don't say that I can't be here anymore, eomonni. Even if I have to cry again and again, even if I have to see him suffer, it won't stop me. I've made a promise to him and I will never betray my words, eomonni. He's my little brother".
Tears are falling from Jinyoung's mom's eyes, "and you are my son, Jaebum-ah.. thank you. Thank you".
They hug each other for a while and cry. JB feels so many affection toward the older lady, he loves her as much as he loves her own mother.
When JB lets her go, his tummy growls.
"Aigoo, you must be hungry, my dear. Come on now, continue your breakfast. You will need a lot of energy. I cooked this special dish, eat a lot!", Jinyoung's mother tells him.
Embarassed, JB says ok and he begins digging his meal.
He almost finishes his meal when he hears glass shattering, followed by a loud thud coming from Jinyoung's room.
JB and Jinyoung's mom looks at each other before rushing to the closed room.