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I told myself everything will be okay. I told myself that nothing will go wrong. But the negative thoughts only made tears gather in my eyes.

I'm worried. Too worried. My usual calm and logical exterior was long gone and right now, I was trying my best not to hyperventilate.

I twisted the Seelie ring around my finger. It had been hours since I had bid them goodbye into Edom. Jace, Clary, Alec, Simon, Lorenzo and Meliorn.

Clary had created a rune with too much resistance and I was worried about that part. What if it didn't work because it had too much resistance? Runes were meant for shadowhunters, not downworlders.

I only prayed to the Angel that everything would work out.

'We split up. I'm with Lorenzo.' Came Alec's voice through my mind.

I was actually surprised it worked in Edom. But then again, it was a Seelie ring, so...

'Okay. But be careful, please?' I replied.

'Always. I love you.'

'I love you too.'

I sighed when I felt Alec disappear. I turned in my chair and faced the many screens that monitored the streets of New York.

Time to make myself useful.

"Anne, I want you to take a team to the alleyway near Java Jones. There had been sightings of demon activity near that area."

Anne gave me a salute. "On it, boss."

I slumped in my chair as she left. Kane suddenly appeared from beside me, holding a glass of water and a small zip lock.

"You haven't drank your prenatal vitamins, Ames." He said.

"Oh, shoot, you're right." I said. "Thanks." I told him. I popped the pill into my mouth before washing it down with water.

He sat beside me and ran a hand through his hair. "How are they doing?"

I bit my lip. "Good so far." I hope it remains that way.

Underhill suddenly approached me and gave me his report. Dismissing him shortly, I placed the report on the table, making a mental note to read it later.

"How are you?" He asked quietly.

I let out a breath. "Been better," I admitted. "My friends and allies are risking their lives for everyone and the Rite of Mourning is coming soon. I'm downright devastated. I lost my mom, and now I might lose the other people I love too–"

I suddenly choked on a sob. God, I didn't even realize the first tear had already fallen. I quickly spun around to avoid my peers catching me cry.

Kane was quick to comfort me, soothing my back by moving his hand in a circular motion.

"Ugh," I shook my head. "Pull yourself together, you're a shadowhunter." I mumbled to myself.

I lifted my chin up. "Kane, a favor?"

"What is it?" He asked.

Ah, fuck it. I need to go before I wouldn't to stop.

"I, uhm... I need some time alone. Can you find Judy? Tell her to oversee things for a bit?" I asked.

He patted my back. "Of course. Go to your room, take a nap or read a book... We got this, Ames."


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