Mean for You (Mean #1) (PUBLISHED UNDER PSICOM)

Chapter Thirty-Eight

I stared blankly at Grant, watching him as he watches the big screen that's in front of us. My forehead creased in concentration as I tried to focus on what I'm feeling for him. Gusto ko maramdaman ulit iyong naramdaman ko sa kanya dati. Gusto ko malaman kung mahal ko pa rin siya katulad ng dati o mas higit pa roon.

Today's the last day of our finals, that's why he asked me to hang out. Naging busy kami pareho ni Grant with all the requirements that we need to accomplish, kaya ngayon lang ulit kami magkakasama.

Okay, that's a lie. Hindi ako naging ganoong kaabala dahil si Rush ang gumawa ng mga requirement ko. Sinabihan ko kasi siya na ''wag akong guluhin dahil marami akong kailangan na gawin. That's why he ended up doing my school works for me.

Nung isang beses, naabutan ni Mommy si Rush na pumunta. Nagulat pa siya nang makita si Rush sa bahay pero nang tiningnan niya ako, pakiramdam ko ay may alam na agad si Mommy sa nangyayari. Mother's instinct na siguro iyon. Mabuti na lang at pinili ni Mommy na 'wag akong tanungin tungkol sa hinala niya.

"Wala ka bang sariling requirements na dapat gawin?"

"I asked someone else to do it for me." He shrugged.

I made a face at his logic. "Pagkatapos sa akin ang gagawin mo?"

He smirked. "I'd do anything just to be with you, baby."

Nang isagot niya iyon ay natahimik na lang ako. Mas minabuti ko na 'wag sumagot sa kanya. I let him do what he wants. He's Rush after all. Kung ano ang gusto niya, gagawin niya.

"Do I have something on my face?" nakangising bulong sa akin ni Grant na nakapagpabalik naman sa akin sa kasalukuyan. Bahagya akong namula kasi nahuli niya akong tinititigan siya. I feel a little guilty that I was thinking about Rush, too.

"N-No," I stammered.

Grant chuckled. "Nalulusaw na ako sa maiinit na titig mo."

I covered my face with my hands. "Stop teasing me."

Tumawa ulit si Grant at hindi ko naman inalis ang mga kamay na nakatakip sa mukha ko. He placed his arm around me and pulled me closer. I found my face being buried to his chest as he kissed the crown of my head.

I closed my eyes and waited for my heart to skip a beat. I paused and waited for my heart to race or to feel like someone had stolen my breath... but nothing. Damn it. Nothing. I feel nothing.

"You're too cute."

I gulped hard and composed myself before raising my head to look at him in the eyes. "Birthday mo na four days from now. May naisip ka ng wish?"

"Yeah, I have." He nodded at me.

My eyebrows raised. I grinned. "Really? What is it?"

"I wanna go to Batangas after my birthday. Just us two."

Umuwang ang labi ko sa sagot ni Grant. I heard him loud and clear, I didn't know what to say. Kung dati siguro, baka kanina pa ako nangisay sa kilig. Kung dati siguro, baka pagkasabi na pagkasabi niya pa lang ay nag-empake na agad ako kahit five days pa naman. Pero...

Hindi dapat ganito. I should be happy right now. I should be jumping for joy because Grant wants to go out of town with me. Pero bakit wala? Kahit anong hintay ang gawin ko, wala pa rin.

"I can't wait!" I ardently said but I'm not sure if my eyes matched my enthusiasm. Mukhang hindi naman iyon napansin ni Grant. Or maybe he just chose to ignore it.

"I'm going to get my grades tomorrow. How about you?"

I shook my head. "Next day pa ang kuhanan ng amin."