change | m.e. (sequel to bully)

Chapter 2

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-one week later-

**Alyssa's POV**

I never expected this day to be this soon in life. It still felt so unreal. I didn't want to face the truth.

"Are you ready to go?" Matt asked snapping me out of my thoughts

I nodded and we walked out to the car. I had on a black dress, my hair was in a side braid but I didn't put on makeup knowing it would just be running down my face. I can barely think about this and Shawn's parents asked me to speak at the funeral. Of course I said yes but I don't know if I can do this.

I was so deep in thought I hadn't realized we got there. Matt walked over to my side of the car and opened the door for me. He put his hand out, I took it and we walked towards the church. I hadn't seen Shawn's parents since before the accident, I only talked to them on the phone.

I saw them sitting in the front. Shawn's mom saw me and called me and Matt up with them. I hugged her and immediately started sobbing.

"I know I miss him too" Mrs. Mendes said

I was close with his family too not just him. His parents were like parents to me.

"I love you" I said to Mrs. Mendes

"I love you too sweetheart."

After a few minutes Matt and I sat down in the row behind Shawn's family and all the guys sat next to us. We were all train wrecks. I zoned out for most of the funeral. Hearing so much stuff about him would kill me.

"And now a few words from Shawn's closest friend Alyssa" the priest said

I got up and slowly walked to the podium. When I got up there I looked at all the people staring at me. All of them had tears in their eyes. I saw my parents there. I hadn't talked to or seen them since the whole pregnancy and I moved out.

"Shawn was m-my bestfriend" was all I said before I was crying extremely hard. I couldn't even talk

Matt got up and walked over to me. He grabbed my hand.

"I-I-I can't d-do this" I said

"Yes you can. I know you can. You're going to do this and Shawn's going to be so proud of you. He's watching over you right now, okay?" Matt said as a tear fell from his eye

I nodded and he kissed my cheek then sat back down.

"Shawn was my bestfriend. I met Shawn when we were in the 8th grade. Before I met him I was extremely depressed but he helped me through a lot. He actually made me feel happy for once in my life. Shawn always made people smile just by being around him. I couldn't have asked for a better person to be my bestfriend. With Shawn we made this family."  I said pointing to Erin, Kellie and the guys "Shawn will forever be apart of our family. Our family cannot be broken. We love you Shawn" I said looking up at the ceiling for the last part.

I walked back to my seat and cried into Matt's chest.  All I could think about was Shawn.

Great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave and impossible to forget.

Hi guys! I'm going to try and update a lot during the week because I am busy this weekend! Hope you're all enjoying the sequel.

xoxo

-Lyss