so this is my first update in a loooong while, i just wanted to see how everyone is and things!
i just want to apologise for the fact i haven't been very active, in trying to cram in all my exam revision. i've done my maths, french and spanish exams already so thank GOD, but you know
i feel like you guys haven't seen my kitten in a while, so i'm answering everyone's prayers :)
he's having an operation tomorrow, which makes me so scared for him 😣
anyways, how has everyone been?
i've been doing a lot lately and have been very busy (again showing why i haven't been online that much)
i'm also trying to beg my parents to let me see khalid in october, it's a work in progress 😬
so yeah, that's me lmao
anyways, what i really want to talk about is father's day.
i put this on my message board a while back now, that i lost my dad when i was very young.
now, i've spoken to a few of my readers and they're going through the exact same thing i went through. it's hard losing someone at that age because it's the stage where you're too young to understand what's going on
when you get older you start to understand more and that's when it really hits you
what upsets me the most is that my dad died before i could make him proud, and that shit hurts. a lot.
i just want to let anyone know that if you're going through a similar thing, i want you to know that everyone has your back. i know that it doesn't feel that way and feels like the whole world is against you
but life continues.
these things hurt you forever, but i know that i've grown from it. it's okay to be upset
but, this is meant to be happy !
my mum managed to find herself a wonderful husband, and i'm so so so glad to call him my dad.
i know father's day is this weekend (for brits, i don't know for americans, sorry !) but i couldn't help than write this right now to respect all the incredible, amazing men out there being the best dads they can be !
love em, sometimes it can go too quick❤️
rip dad, i love you more and more every day
fuck, i made myself cry writing this. and i'm listening to khalid :'(