Class went by brutally slow.
I couldn't help but sit and stare at the empty desk and know the reason why it's empty. And it made me so damn guilty.
I felt practically sick to my stomach at the thought of how I had yelled at her like I did. I don't know what got into me in the moment but I truly wish I could rewind and take how I handled the situation back.
I was mad considering I don't want anything getting in the way of my career, especially the fact that I'm dating one of my students. However, it's clear to me now that Addison hadn't had bad intentions. Sure her approach wasn't the best but she didn't mean it in a harmful way. She was messing around and I took it too literally.
Placing my hands over my face as my elbows rest on my desk, I wait for the rest of the class to clear out. I even let them go early today considering I can't focus on a damn thing besides Addison who's probably upset more than ever right now.
I should text her but I really just want to go see her and talk to her. I owe her an apology for the way I handled things earlier and the way I talked to her.
Removing my hands from my face, I look up to see Claire standing in front of my desk as the rest of the room had cleared out. I practically sigh out loud considering she's the reason I'm stressed out right now yet here she is about to stress me out more.
"Yes Claire," I say trying not to sound frustrated.
"I just wanted to check to see if you're okay," she says as I get up, getting ready to pack my belongings and leave this room. I have no intentions of keeping this conversation going. "You seemed a little anxious before class and during you seemed upset."
"I'm fine Claire, thank you for checking," I say turning my back to her and hoping she'll leave me be.
"You know, I'm happy to help you relax if you ever need it," she says as I furrow my eyebrows and place things in my bag.
I hardly look over my shoulder as I say, "I appreciate the offer, but I'll be alright."
Just as I straighten up from putting things in my bag, I'm taken by surprise as I feel Claire grab my wrist and tug me towards her. My eyes widen as she looks at me with a smile that's enough to make me cringe. Her eyes drop to my chest and suddenly I feel my heart rate pick up in the worst way possible.
"Are you sure?" she asks biting her lip. "I think we could both use it."
Her hand finds its way on my stomach and starts to trail up before I even realize what's happening.
"Woah," I say shaking my head and immediately stepping away from her once it all clicks. "Claire, this is inappropriate, I am your teacher."
And of course Addison did nothing but warn me that Claire only wanted one thing from me. I didn't want to believe her, I wanted to believe that she really needed me for extra help. I wanted to believe a student counted on me to help them beyond class when it comes to our studies.
"So?" she smirks, crossing her arms over her chest. "You can't be anymore than two years older than me and there's no university rule."
Shaking my head, I almost can't believe my ears and the way she's blatant about it.
"I'm sorry Claire but you are my student, I'm not letting it go anywhere beyond that."
Claire's face clearly drops and I just turn away from her and pick up my stuff in order to get the hell out of here. She really thought I was going to give into her today.