Untold Truths | jjk. kth

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Chapter 4

Jungkook's POV

It was the middle of the night and for some reason I couldn't sleep, I got up from my bed and looked over at Tae. He was sound asleep so I headed past him and out the door. I had been giving y/n her space at night sense that time of year was coming up. She had been extra emotional and on edge, I poked my head in her room and seen she was awake. She smiled at me and motioned for me to come lay with her. I quickly shut the door behind me and got in her bed, I pulled her closely into my chest and to my surprise she wrapped her arms around me. I kissed her forehead and she let out a soft cry, it broke my heart to hear her be so broken and vulnerable. I stroked her hair and just let her whimper into my chest until she fell asleep. I did my best to just comfort her, I tried not to let any of my tears shed until she was fast asleep. I held her close to me letting my silent tears fall onto her pillow, I wish there was something I could have done for her. I wish I could have helped and saved them so she didn't have to be in this pain. So we both didn't have to be in This pain.

I woke up the next morning to y/n still holding onto me, it instantly put a smile on my face. I tightened my grip around her and she looked up at me "Hmm your awake?" I groggily mumbled my voice coming out deeper than normal, she nodded her head and then rested it against my chest once more.
"Thank you" she whispered. "For what?" I asked pulling back a bit to try and look at her, she rolled over onto her back and looked up at the ceiling "Just for being with me last night...it's been hard on me and I haven't really taken your feelings about the situation into consideration...sorry about that" she looked over at me when she said the last part, I was never mad or upset with her more so mad and upset with myself. I rolled onto my side and kissed her forehead once more "No need to apologize" she forced a smile but I still seen the sorrow hiding behind her beautiful eyes. I just wish I could take it away somehow.
"Come on, let's go out for the day just me and you" she sat up and stretched "You have work" I pulled her towards me again and kissed her shoulder lightly "I'll call in, Come on we can use a day where it's just us" she contemplated for a moment and then finally agreed.

Later that evening

The day was going perfectly, I took y/n to our favorite little bistro that was tucked away. Most people didn't even know it existed, she had brought me here on that first week Jimin took me in. Me and y/n really hit it off instantly, it was nice to have her back just me and her. After we ate all our favorites we took a drive along the coast, we stopped at one of the peaks and just enjoyed each other's company. I got a blanket out from the trunk as we headed over towards some rocks to sit and watch the scenery around us.

The wind howled every now and then, making her white shirt cling to her torso. Her hair dancing in the wind as the sun shined down on the two of us, I wrapped the blanket around her shoulders and sat beside her. She leaned into me and I could feel the smile on her lips as we enjoyed the view for a few moments. "So much has changed in such a short time"
I looked down at her not expecting the conversation quite yet. I wrapped my arm around her and she sat up a bit to look at me "I know" I said looking into her eyes. I could see the tears forming in the corner of her eyes, I cupped her cheeks and shook my head no "Don't cry y/n" but as soon as the words came out of my mouth the tears fell from her eyes crushing my insides. I held her face and rested my forehead against hers "I'm sorry Jungkook" she whispered, I shook my head again not wanting her to apologize or feel any sorrow about what happened that night.
"You don't have to apologize y/n. None of it was your fault" she pulled back and wiped her tears "It feels like it's all my fault...if I would have just-" "No" I said quickly interrupting her. "If that guy wouldn't have been driving while drunk then everything would be fine. Everyone would still be here it wasn't your fault y/n" I watched as she continued to look down at her lap, a tear falling onto her jeans as her small hands lightly touched her stomach.
My heart ached at the sight, our baby would have been one and a half by now if it wasn't for that night. I could feel my own eyes forming tears now, I did my best not to think about what could have been. But every year around this time the nightmares would appear and my mind would stay up all night and envision what our little family would have been like. That same night that driver took not only our baby but y/n mom as well. Y/n just wasn't the same sense then, she didn't want to be touched or kissed, she distanced herself from everyone including me. We never really broke up but somehow it felt like our relationship died that night. I so badly wanted it back but I knew being around me sometimes was hard for y/n.
Even now it was hard for her to let me show my affection towards her, she just started letting me touch and kiss her again. A whole year later.
I blinked a few times letting the tears fall from my eyes and scooped her up in my arms, I pulled her on my lap and just held her. She clung to me and let her tears fall even more soaking my shirt. I didn't mind though we both needed this time to get it all out. I needed her to be okay, to recover from our losses so she can be happy again. I needed her to be happy again, it pained me every day to hear her cry herself to sleep or to watch her force a smile when others were around. I just wanted my y/n back, I was so desperate to do anything I could to get her back.