"What are you guys thinking about being for Halloween?" I ask my friends while chewing on a piece of carrot. I take another bite from my carrot stick, waiting for their answers. All of my friends shrug at me.
"I'm thinking Peter and I will go as doctor and nurse. I'm ready to slut it up, outfit wise at least." Jill tells me, dipping her carrot in the ranch. Peter kisses her on the top of her head and I'm die of cuteness.
"Mara and I are thinking that we'll be two devils. The cliche. What about you?" Dana asks me and I shrug at her, dipping my carrot into the ranch.
"I don't know. I don't have anyone to dress up with. Might go as a fairy or something."
"You could ask Harry." Jill wiggles her eyebrows at me and I scoff at her.
"Yeah you guys have been getting a little close lately."
"We've hung out a few times. I highly doubt he even likes me anyway." I tell my friends, shaking my head. I lean against my kitchen counter because my legs are tired. My friends tell me how amazing I am, once again. That sounds a little bitchy I know it does but at some point it's just not enough. I've gone seventeen years without a boyfriend which is ridiculous to me. Like what is it about me guys don't like? I'd do anything to change it, to get one person to love me the way I think I deserved to be loved. Maybe I don't deserve to be loved because the way life has been treating me in the love department, it looks like I don't.
"Are you listening, Clem?" Peter asks me, waving his hand in front of my face.
"What? Sorry, I was in my own head."
"It's fine. I was just telling you how my friend Taylor thinks you're cute. He might wanna go to the party with you." I hear my front door slam shut and voices in the other room. My mom and brother must be home.
"Drop it. We'll talk about it later." I whisper to my friends right before my mom and sibling enter the kitchen.
"Wow, you actually have friends?" Is the first thing Adam says to me when he sees everyone in the kitchen. I roll my eyes and keep quiet. I felt bad about my freak out the other day because I know my mom just wanted us to get along.
"Do you guys want me to order pizza?" My mom asks us and I tell her yes. My brother looks a little pissed that no one laughed or responded to his comment. Hopefully he takes the hint no one likes him and leaves. My mom pulls out her phone and goes into another room to call in the pizza order.
"Where is Mara tonight?" I ask Dana and she tells me she's at a friend's house for a group project.
"So do you guys feel bad or something for Clementine? Is that why you guys are friends with her?" My brother steals a carrot and raises his eyebrows at my friends. I roll my eyes at him.
"No, actually. She's cool and we love her so we'd appreciate it if you would keep your mouth shut, bro." Peter stands up for me and I smile at him, silently telling him thank you. He nods back at me.
"I can take a hint when I'm not wanted. I'll leave, I guess." He takes a handful of carrots before going off to his room, I'm assuming. My mom comes back in and tells us the pizza is on it's way.
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"I feel like shit." Jill tells all of us as soon as she sits down at our table. I offer her some of my water and she chugs half of it.
"What's wrong?" Dana asks her, pulling out her food for the day. She brought an apple, sandwich, and chips.
"I've been nauseous all day and I feel like I have a fever. But I can't go home or my mom will take my phone or ground me or some stupid shit." After that she puts her head on the table and closes her eyes. The table is pretty cool so I figured she's trying to cool down.
"Hey!" Harry pops up out of no where with a tray of food. Lately he's been eating lunch here everyday. I'm suspecting he never had friends to sit with in the beginning.
"Hey, what's up?" I ask him, making room for him to sit next to me. He thanks me and takes a seat.
"Nothing much. I definitely failed my test I just took but what can you do, you know? What's wrong with Jill?"
"We think she's either dying or pregnant." Dana informs him and he nods, opening his soda. Jill sits up and glares at Dana.
"Don't even joke about being pregnant. I'm still a baby, I can't have a baby." And then Jill goes back to sleep when she finishes talking. Dana pulls out her phone and starts typing so Harry turns to me to talk.
"What are you doing for Halloween?" I ask him, turning to face him as well.
"Going to Fred's party, same as you guys. Peter invited me yesterday night. What are you going to dress up as? I see you as a sexy vampire."
"I'm still thinking about it, I was thinking fairy but I'll keep sexy vampire in mind. How about you?"
"It's a surprise, you'll just have to wait." He winks at me and I laugh at him, shaking my head. We continue to talk the rest of lunch, about casual things. It's easy to talk to him, he doesn't push on anything and he doesn't want to know every deep dark secret I have out in public. I don't really know any of his deep dark secrets either though. Maybe it'll change? I'm not sure. I think that we're friends but I don't know if he considers us friends.