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Jimin would be lying if he said he hadn't puked already. 

He knew the court case was going on right at that moment, Sungwoon and his grandparents had already walked in there long before. He had wanted to walk in along with them head held high as he made sure Bon Hwa got what he deserved.

Except here he was right outside the courtroom beside a trash can he had just thrown up in. Some people had cast him pitying glances, and he was pretty sure some had recognized who he was from the case, but nobody bothered him. He just continued staring at the door as if expecting to find the courage to walk in there.

But he was just feeling more nervous and not knowing what to do. 

The hallways were pretty empty but Jimin was still aware of the news reporters outside and even in that room. This wasn't considered a huge case but thanks to the scene at the airport it had garnered a lot of public attention and Jimin had already seen the picture of him bleeding in that suitcase and couldn't help but feel sick just thinking about it again.

No, now was not the time to focus on the negatives.

He knew people weren't allowed to record in there so he wouldn't have to worry about the news reporters but everyone he knew was in there and what they were discussing was terrifying. Sungwoon could be talking about everything Bon Hwa had done to him and others, what if the family of those who had been killed by him had shown up? 

Quickly Jimin leaned towards the trash can letting himself get sick again. He pushed against the wall as he slowly got back his balance his head aching with how stressed he was getting. He needed this, he needed closure. He knew everything was seeming so tough right now but he couldn't let himself take the easy way out now. 

So he took a deep breath as he rubbed the sleeve over the shirt of his mouth and pushed open the doors to the courtroom.

As his eyes began to adjust to the brighter lights in there he immediately tensed up noticing how everyone seemed to be looking at him. He hadn't necessarily thought it through what he was going to do or say but he just let his eyes wander around the room seeing tons of strangers staring back at him. 

His eyes met Jin and Namjoon's quite quickly and he couldn't help but feel disappointed looking at them. He had clearly lied to them about staying home but he didn't want to talk to them about planning to come here, he didn't want to get their hopes up about him making this much effort.

Except here he was in a courtroom literately frozen and not knowing what to do.

He also saw Taehyung and Jungkook and he felt guilty for not making an effort to visit them. They were the people he had known the longest, the ones who had originally helped him when he got caught up with Bon Hwa. They also had been the ones who tried to get him to contact the police about Bon Hwa but he had denied it not wanting to get the older in trouble. But now the thought of how so many others had gotten hurt thanks to his sadistic ways Jimin couldn't help but feel angry at how manipulative he was.

The next eyes he met was Hoseok and he couldn't help but feel his vision start to blur seeing him. Jimin had so desperately wanted to be near one of his boyfriends during this whole thing but he had needed space to properly get on the right track and he was so scared of what they would think of him if he accidentally said something about what happened.

Hell, he was terrified right now but it's not like he could change any of that.

Yoongi was up on the witness stand and appeared to be in the middle of saying something when Jimin had barged in the room. He couldn't tell what it was about but he seemed to have been very aggravated and annoyed towards the people questioning him.