Love vs. Lust

Chapter 11

As his hands moved over my back and started working on my neck I couldn't take it anymore, I had to get away from him or I was going to do something I was going to regret later.

Without saying a word I moved forward out of his grip and slipped into the cold water of the pool. I went completely under trying to force all my emotions under control, I only came up when I couldn't hold my breath any longer and needed some are. I surfaced with my back to him but knew I had to turn around to face him, it's not like I could ignore him even if I wanted to.

I slowly turned around and found myself face to face with him. He was in the water with me and looking at me with confusion written all over his handsome face.  

"Why did you do that?" He questioned.  

"I just couldn't wait anymore, I wanted to swim" I lied knowing he would know I was lying as well.  

"No, that's not it, you wanted to get away from me" He stated the expression on his face changing from confusion to hurt and then understanding.  

"No, it's not like that, I just wanted to swim" I replied trying to fix the situation.  

"It's ok Gabby. You don't have to lie to try and protect my feelings, I can tell that you despise me, I'm just not sure why. I thought we were getting closer but now it's like you hate me even more then before" Cole said as he turned around and started making his way to the edge of the pool. He pulled himself out and if I wasn't so shocked by his words I would have drooled at the sight of his shimmering wet body.

I knew I had to fix this somehow but I had absolutely no idea how to do it. He was completely wrong about my feelings. I didn't hate him, I've fallen for him and it scared the crap out of me. Cole is a player, he uses girls and then breaks their hearts and there was no reason for things to be any different between us. He would take what he wanted and then squash my heart and my self respect with it. But still I couldn't handle seeing him look so hurt, I've never seen him act like this and that scared me as well. What if he wasn't playing me and I kept pushing him away. I had no idea what to do.

I quickly swam to the edge of the pool and pulled myself out.

"Cole!" I called after him and watched as he came to a stop and then turned around to face me.  

"What?" He asked not coming any closer to me. I didn't feel like yelling and to be honest I had no idea what to say so I used the opportunity to get my thoughts straight as I walked over to him.

"I'm sorry" I whispered when I finally reached him. He had the strangest expression on his face and I couldn't make out what it meant. I just hoped he would forgive me for my stupid behavior earlier. He was only putting sun tan lotion on for me after all.  

"You don't have to apologize, you didn't do anything wrong. It's my own fault that you don't trust me, I mean with the way I've acted in the past I can't blame you for not wanting anything to do with me. I was hoping I could win your trust but I see now that it won't happen so you don't have to worry, I won't make this anymore difficult on you" He stated, then turned his back on me and headed into the house.

I stood there staring after him and trying to make sense of his words when my brother came walking out of the house.  

"Put on your clothes, I'm taking you home" He said not sounding too happy at all. I didn't argue, I quickly slipped on my shorts and shirt and followed him to Cole's car. Conner got in behind the wheel and started it while I got into the passenger's seat.  

"Where is Cole?" I asked trying to find out what was going on.  

"He didn't feel like coming along but thought I should take you home, he didn't think you would want to be here any longer" Conner answered as he made his way out of the long driveway and onto the road.  

"Is he ok?" I asked feeling like crap about what happened, I didn't want to hurt him, I just couldn't stand letting him know how I felt just so that he could break my heart in a few days when he got tired of me.  

"No Gabby, he is far from ok. Can't you see what you're doing to him?" My brother asked with poison in his voice.  

"What do you mean? I haven't done a thing! One minute he is teasing me and the next minute he is being so friendly he doesn't even seem like the same person" I stated feeling irritated. He was the one acting strange, not me.

"He is in love with you Gabby" Conner stated keeping his eyes securely on the road in front of him. His words took me by complete surprise and it took me a few second to process them and to respond.  

"No he's not" I said remembering him kissing Morgan just last night.  

"Why do you say that?" My brother asked sounding less angry then before.  

"Because I saw him kissing Morgan last night, if he was in love with me he wouldn't be kissing other girls" I stated trying to stay calm.  

"You saw that huh?" He asked casting a smile my way, confusing the shit out of me. Why would he be smiling about it?  

"What's so funny about that!?" I half yelled unable to contain my anger any longer.  

"How much did you see?" He asked ignoring my question.  

"I heard a car outside so I looked out the window and saw Morgan. Cole walked out of the house and then she threw her arms around him and kissed him, I didn't look any further, I didn't want to see" I answered wondering why he was asking me this.  

"You should have watched" He stated calmly.  

"Why? I think I saw enough to prove that he couldn't possibly be in love with me" I said looking at my brother and trying to figure out what he was getting at.  

"You've got it all wrong Gabby. Cole didn't kiss Morgan, she kissed him and as soon as she did he pushed her off of him and told her to get lost. I watched the whole thing" He stated bringing the car to a stop in front of our house.

I didn't say anything, I just sat there wondering if I could have been wrong about Cole, maybe I jumped to conclusions, maybe I should have given him a chance.  

"He loves you Gabby" Conner said looking straight at me this time. I didn't know what to say to this so I just shook my head and got out of the car.

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