I paced back and forth outside the bedroom door trying to think of how to start this conversation with her. We've been married for two years now and ever since I was young I've always wanted to start a family. Y/n wants the same thing but she said she isn't ready right now.
The problem is I'm ready to have kids but I don't want her to feel like I'm pressuring her into this. I want both of us to be ready for this and I feel like we are. I'm just scared that she's going to keep putting it off until she changes her mind and doesn't want kids anymore.
I decided to stop being such a baby and went into the bedroom where she sat at her desk doing work on the computer. She turned her head to look at me and smiled as she said hello and went back to work. I said hi back as I sat down next to her.
"Can we talk Please, it's serious?" I asked her and she nodded as she turned to me completely.
"Look I have been so scared to talk about this but babe I'm ready to have kids and I feel like we're in a good enough place to." I told her and she smiled slightly.
"I know and I've been holding it off for so long because I'm nervous," she paused and looked down at her lap sadly, "what if I'm not a good enough mom?"
My heart broke and I pulled her into a tight hug. "I promise you that your going to be the greatest mom in the entire world." I assured her.
She stayed in my arms a little longer before pulling away and smiling at me. "Ok let's do this. Let's have a baby."
"Don't worry because we are going to love the shit out of that kid." I told her making her chuckle.
"Your going to be a great dad Grayson." She smiled and I felt my heart warm at the thought of being a dad to a beautiful baby girl or boy. I'm so nervous about being a dad but having y/n and the excitement outweighs all the anxiety.
If I'm gonna start a family with anyone then I'm beyond grateful that it's going to be with her. I have known from the moment I laid eyes on her that she is the one for me.