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I turned to look at Louis and I shook my head. Explain what? That he is a complete monster? “I don’t know what to do Louis. I mean would you?” He looked at me but didn’t say anything.
“I trusted him, he was the first one that I love and he lied to me. I didn’t know what love was until I meet him. My parents are never around; they don’t give a crap about me. When they call all they do is ask if I have enough money, they don’t actually ask me if I am okay or if I’m with someone. Hell, they don’t even remember my birthday!” I said tears coming to my eyes.
“I can’t.. I don’t know!” I said crying and stood up. “I mean he scared me, he looked like a monster. He is a monster; he killed someone in front of me! ” I said breathing unevenly and started to shake.
“I know he did” Louis whispered to me.
“I mean he gave me this damn necklace and now all that it is going to do is haunt me!” I said taking it off from my neck and throwing it onto the bed landing next to Louis. Louis looked down at it and picked it up holding it in his hand. “What am I supposed to do Louis? My mom is supposed to be the one to help me with break ups, that is what moms are for but she’s not here. How am I able to decide if I should talk to him or if I should leave?”
Louis stood up and walked towards me. “Hey, it’s okay. Just calm down Ellie, I’ll help you. ” he said holding his hands out to me.
“How?! How am I supposed to calm down? How are you going to help me?” I yelled at him tugging at my hair. “How am I supposed to calm down when he stole my heart and practically stomped all over it? I have to move on but I cant. I can’t and-“I said and broke down crying falling onto my knees crying out. I cried my arms folded over my stomach as if that would take the pain away. “It hurts so much.” I said and he kneeled down beside me and pulled me into his chest.
“I love him Louis. I love him, he was the only source of positivity that I have and now-“ I said not being able to finish the sentence. He held me and rocked me back and forth.
“It’ll be okay, I promise” he whispered placing his chin at the top of my head. I grabbed the necklace from his hands and held it in my hands pressing it against my chest.
“Can I please be alone Louis” I whispered to him and he gave me a nod gently releasing me and walked out of the bedroom closing the door.
I stood up and crawled onto the bed. I placed my hand over my mouth to cover my sobs. I never thought it would hurt this much. I feel like everything I have ever had has been taken away from me. I am so mad, scolding tears rush quickly down my face. I pull the bed sheets back and climb in and curl up and really let go, sobbing into my pillow. What was I thinking?
I sob harder into my pillow. How could I let this happen? How could I have been so stupid and believe that I knew him, that he actually cared?
Oh the look on his face when I said those words before I walked away. I was so cruel, shocked with everything that had happened. Will he forgive me? Will I forgive him? My thoughts are wary and jumbled, running back and forth.
I wish my grandma was here, she always used to know what to say to me. I can still remember her words from just before she passed away. “Follow your heart and try not to over think things. You deserve the best of everything, just let it happen.”
Well, I did follow my heart and now I have a few scrapes and bruises to show for it. Not to mention the clawing ach in my stomach where the shattered glass that was my heart has sunk down and is now poking at my sides.
I sighed fisting my blanket. This is a dark day of the souls for me.
I climbed into my car and drove away; I needed to clear my head. I can’t believe I let things get this far. I was going to tell her everything to but after the winter formal, I didn’t want her to lose the opportunity to go to a school dance. What am I supposed to do? She is never going to talk to me again. I need her, I really do need do need her.
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