“You really miss him, don’t you?”
Tyler was in Derek’s room as Derek showed him all of his toys. Michael and I were currently sitting on the couch together with my head on his shoulder. We were just talking about everything that has happened in the past few years.
“I do, Michael. It’s not just because I still love him but I just miss how he would try his best to visit his children.”
“Yeah, those kids were his world. But supposedly, he didn’t visit anymore because he just couldn’t stand seeing you.”
“Well, that’s a fucking great excuse…..”
“There has to be a bigger reason behind it. It’s just dumb of him to do that.”
“This is way off topic, but does Tyler actually love Kaitlyn?”
Michael sighed. “It looks like they do. They are already expecting a child which still surprises me.”
“A-Are they married?”
“Nope. I asked Tyler if he was ever going to propose but he said that he’s not over his failed marriage yet. It’s going to take him a couple of years.”
“Do you think that divorcing him….was the right thing to do?”
Michael looked at me before hugging me. “If I were in your shoes, I would have done the same thing. I know that it must have been hard but these things happen and we just have to accept it. Don’t worry, you will find someone better than Tyler, I just know it.”
“So, do the kids help you around the house?” He asked.
“They do even though I know that they need to do their homework. Case found out about the divorce and he would visit sometimes to help with cooking and cleaning.”
“Well, that’s nice. Is there something going on between you two?”
I chuckled. “No, I’m completely over him. How are the guys?”
“Well, we’re still annoying.They really missed you and the twins. They’re constantly talking about funny stories that involved your kids.”
One tear fell from my eye. I really do miss the guys and all the fun times we had. Sometimes, I just wish that I can go back to when I was in my twenties. Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids but I do miss the times where I was free and had no responsibility. I miss the times when Tyler and I were on good terms. I miss all of this.
Michael hugged me tightly as he saw that I was on the verge of crying.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and saw Tyler.
“Derek was tired so I told him that he could take a nap. Look, can we talk in the backyard..?”
I didn’t have an answer to that question. I feel like if we go outside together, I’ll either start to kiss him or snap at him for leaving me to be a single mom. I just got up and went straight to the backyard. My eyes were already watery and I regret coming here.
Tyler closed the door to the backyard and looked at me. “I-I’m sorry for never coming back. It just felt weird going to a house that you lived your whole life in. But, I’m changing right now…”
“But, I’m changing right now…”
She looked up at me once I said that. I could see eyes perfectly clear.
“I want to visit the kids more often. I want them to love me again and to forgive me for being so stupid. I also want them to come to my house just so they can hang out with me more. I just want my kids back, Danielle. Our kids.”
She bit her lip which is something that she does when she’s thinking. I just know in my head that she’s going to say no.
“I don’t know, Tyler. It’s not really my decision. It’s the kids’ decision. If they want to live or visit you then that’s with me but at the same time, I don’t want them to go somewhere where they don’t feel comfortable.”
“What are you trying to say?” I asked, offended.
“What I’m trying to say is that our kids don’t forgive people that easily, especially Melonie. Just because you’re their father and you finally decided to come visit doesn’t mean you’ll gain their love back. I’m not going to force them to love you. I’m not going to force them to talk to you when you visit and I’m not going to force them to stay with you over the summer or on the weekends. It’s THEIR choice, NOT MINE.”
“Well, let Derek live with me and you can stay with the twins.” I said before regretting it. I was about to earn a slap to the face.
“Are you fucking idiotic or what? I’m not separating my kids!”
“Mom?” I heard from behind. I turned around and saw Melonie.
I totally forgot how much she looked like Dani. They both had green eyes and light brown hair. They also had dimples in the same place.
Melonie looked at me and I couldn’t help but smile a bit. “Hey there, kiddo?”
She was silent for a moment, but then she snapped.
“Where the fuck have you been? Do you really just expect to come here and act like everything’s fine? Do you know-” was all that she said before Michael, the other twin, stood infront of her and put his hand over his mouth.
“I’m sorry about her. She is just peeved off that you came after years. Don’t worry, she always apologizes to people who she snaps a- OWW” Michael said as Melonie bit his hand.
“Let me finish.” She said before looking at me again. “Do you know how hard it was for me in elementary school when teachers would say ‘alright kids, I would like you to talk about your father and how he is an inspiration to you’?”
“Melonie, go back inside and try to calm yourself.” Danielle said.
“Melonie….” Danielle replied, giving her a death glare. Melonie went inside the house and closed the door gently.
Danielle was right. It wasn’t going to be easy to gain their love back.