Chapter 45

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- Joe's POV - ( Sorry for another Joe POV But I want to keep what's going through Caspar's mind a secret for the time being.)

I had just confessed my love to Caspar, and for minutes he didn't have a word to say back. He stared at me blankly. The silence mocked me.

"What are you expecting from me, Joe? I told you before I wasn't sure of my feelings. If you came all the way here to say you loved me then you wasted your money on a plane ticket. If I knew my feelings I would have told you earlier. I need to be alone to figure them out, Joe." He said, almost in monotone, looking through me.

I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. My tongue felt like dry sandpaper. 

"When did you get so rude?" Troye spoke. Caspar looked just as surprised as me to hear Troye say that.

"When everyone stopped caring about what I wanted. Everyone tries to just force things on me now. Force JOE on me. Whose side are you on anyway? You've always been closer to me." His tone was angry now.

Force me onto him? Was I really that revolting to him? Troye's fingers laced tightly around my wrist once more as he dragged me out.

He used his thumb to wipe tears off my face. I hadn't realized I had started crying. Embarrassed, I quickly used the back of my hand to remove the rest.

"Are you okay?" He asked, sympathetically.

"Never been better," I said sarcastically. I tried to force a smile, but it didn't work.

"I have a plan." Troye said, encouragingly.

I nodded for him to go on.

"You're going to have to trust me, okay?" He stared down at me, and I couldn't help but lock his gaze.


"Go on a date with me." There wasn't a hint of jokingness in his tone. 

"What?" I was questioning my trust in Troye now. Was he out of his mind? Nervous heat spread across my face.

He laughed, "Trust me. Caspar will be insanely jealous. He'll finally see how much you mean to him. I'm sure of it. He might even go so far as to stalk us." Troye's tone was getting more and more excited.

"What if Caspar just gives up on me? What if he decides to move on completely?" I asked, my faith in his plan quickly fading.

"He won't. Joe, you said you'd trust me."

I had indeed said that. I didn't want to offend Troye and say I didn't like his plan. "Alright."

Troye smiled, "Let's do it now."

Now? NOW? I needed time to think through what I'd say to Caspar before he decides to move on from any feelings he might have left for me.

Troye must have seen the horror on my face because he quickly said, "I'll do the talking."

Before I could protest, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me away. Each step we took was a step closer to Caspar. A step closer to losing him.

"Joe and I are going to the cinema to see a movie today. It starts at eight." Troye announced.

"Oh." It was Caspar's voice now, "Have fun then."

I knew it. I knew it. He doesn't even care. He's glad I bet. Glad to be rid of me. I blinked back tears.

"We're leaving now to get good seats." Troye continued.

"Okay." Caspar responded. I still couldn't muster up the courage to look at him.

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