I wake up and nuzzle closer to Ashley, turning around and hiding my face in his chest. "You hungry?" he asks and I shrug. "Not really," I say and he sighs. "Are you not hungry? Or are you not eating?" he asks. "Both, I guess. I'm just so tired," I groan.
"Everything," I sigh, laying on my back on top of him. "Jackie," he whispers, looking down at me. "You can't help me or some other shit like that, okay? I'm fucked, and this is never gonna stop," I say and he bites his lip, running his fingers through my hair. "Jackie, even though Jinxx hasn't remembered everything, he remembers you losing the baby and how bad it got; And how bad it was before then, too. None of us want to see you like this, especially not him," he says.
"What about CC? He hasn't been eating much. Have you talked to him recently?" I ask and Ashley shakes his head. "No, he's been in his room a lot of the time," he says and I roll my eyes, pushing myself off the bed.
"I'm sure he's fine," Ashley says. "Bullshit. He is NOT okay and you fucking KNOW it," I growl, walking into CC's room. He looks up at me and smiles. "Hi," he says weakly and I frown. "What's wrong?" I ask, sitting on his bed beside him.
He shakes his head, his eyes getting wet and glassy. "I-I don't know," he mutters and I hug him, wincing as my jackets rubs against my scars, making them burn. "Jackie," he says slowly and I sigh. "I-I haven't been eating right, either," I admit and he nods.
"Sleeve off," he orders, taking his off. We put our arms against each others and he smiles, looking at me. "They almost match. Yours aren't as deep though," he says and I nod. "Damnit, I thought mine were deep though," I fake pout and he chuckles.
"We both need to eat something; C'mon," I say, putting my jacket back on and waiting for him to get up before walking out the door.
We walk into the kitchen and I push myself onto counter, now eye-level with him. "We should go pick up Jinxx soon,"I mumble and he nods, looking away and biting his lip. I wrap my arms around him and pull him closer, resting my forehead on his.
"I'm taller than you," I tease and he smiles. "Yup," he states and glances down at my lips. I smile and slowly lean forward, brushing our lips together. Jake walks into the kitchen and I sigh, leaning back and sliding off the counter, walking to the fridge and getting some yogurt, then walking into the living room.
"What the hell is wrong with you?!" I ask when she leaves. "What's wrong with you?! Dude, you ruined our moment!" I whine. "What moment?! What moment, CC? There was no moment; There should not have BEEN a moment!" I argue.
"I know. I know, I'm sorry. I just, I really like her, Jake," he whimpers and I frown. "And it isn't fair because her and Ash are always together and the whole time while Jinxx was in the hospital they were just like, cuddling and kissing and stuff and I HATE it, okay?! It isn't fucking fair!" he continues and I put my finger over his mouth, shaking my head.
"Dude, you're babbling now," I say and he looks down, sucking in his lips. "Sorry," he apologizes and I smile, chuckling.
My breath hitches in my throat as I hear him chuckle, his eyes sparking with amusement. "Cece, you okay?" he asks. "Y-yeah, why?" I ask, my voice shaky. "You're acting strange," he says. "I'm probably just tired. I'm gonna go take a nap or whatever," I mumble, quickly walking up to my room and shutting the door, collapsing on my bed.
The door opens and I sigh. "Jake, go away," I mumble. "It isn't Jake," I hear Ashley's voice say and look up, seeing him standing in the doorway. "C-can I come in?" he asks and I nod. He sits on the bed beside me and places his hand on my upper thigh lightly, making me tense.
"What's wrong? I know you aren't tired," he says. "I-I don't know. I just, Jake touched my lips and I got all. . . Tingly and stuff," I say and he smiles, looking away for a few seconds. "Did you uh- Did you get all 'Tingly and stuff' when I touched your leg?" he asks and I nod. "What about when I do this?" he asks and softly touches my jawline.
I nod again, biting my lip. He scoots closer and runs his hand down my chest, stopping just above my waist. "Y-yes," I whimper and he bites his lip, placing his hand on the bulge in my pants, making me gasp. He pushes down and I whimper, my hips involuntarily bucking forward.
He smiles and sighs, leaning down and resting his forehead on mine. "Are you bi?" he asks. "I-I don't know," I mumble and he pushes down on my erection again, biting his lip, eyes sparkling with amusement. "You are. Because you like Jackie, and Jake, and me," he breathes, our lips touching as he talks.
"I can tell you want me to kiss you; But you have to say it first," he teases and I whine. "I-I want you t-to kiss me," I beg and he smiles. "For the record, I wanted to kiss you, too. This isn't me being a tease," he whispers, leaning down and slowly connecting our lips.
I start kissing back and he puts his legs on either side of me, straddling me. He slowly pulled away, staring into my eyes. "I love you," he whispers and I bite my lip, looking down. "It's fine if you can't say it; But I do love you," he says and sits up. "Please don't leave," I whimper, grabbing his arm.
"I won't. . . If you tell me what this is," he asks and I look at my exposed arm, biting my lip and looking back at him.