Eyes Closed (Chaelisa)

Chapter 40

Rosé POV

It's the 31st of December and me and Lisa are at my parent's house to celebrate New Year's Eve with them. A few days ago, we actually managed to tell them about our relationship and they were pretty much ecstatic. They even hugged Lisa first when we walked in the front doors this morning. I'm their daughter and they're more excited to see my girlfriend. I pouted at them jokingly but deep inside I was really happy that they accepted my relationship with Lisa fully. I have the best family in the world.

Normally when all four of us are apart from each other, the group chat that we have is very much alive. However, Jennie has been MIA since late afternoon. I have this sinking feeling in my gut that tells me something's wrong but Lisa kept reassuring me that Jennie is just probably busy.

Midnight comes in and we are all celebrating New Year's Eve and Jennie has still not greeted us on the group chat. I excused myself and went inside my room to give Jennie a call.

She answers on the fifth ring and before I could even manage to say a word, the girl on the other side of the phone breaks down in tears. I immediately panic and I don't know what to do in this situation.

"Unnie, what's wrong? I'm here, everything's gonna be okay."

"Rosie, it's all over for me." Once Jennie says those words she sobs even more.

"Unnie please tell me what's wrong." I tell her, trying my best not to cry too. I feel deeply worried about her.

"K-kai ... called me ... a-and a-and he ... told me Dispatch found out a-about us. They are .. going to release ... the news ... today." She says in between sobs.

"How did he find out?"

"He said Dispatch informed his management and they can't do anything about it. Rosie, what do I do? YG might kick me out. I, I'm sorry I didn't mean to be caught. I only wanted to be happy." She sobs even harder. I couldn't help it anymore as tears fall from my eyes. I love unnie with all my heart and it breaks me to see her like this. I try my best to act calm and not to sound like I'm crying too.

"He's not gonna kick you out unnie. I promise you that. He'll be the biggest idiot if he decides to let you go because of this. He'll be losing out on a lot if he loses you. You're one of the best idols out there, you're THE Jennie Kim, always remember that. And even if he is an idiot and does kick you out, I know for a fact that none of us would stay there because there is no Blackpink if it isn't the four of us. We can just debut else where. I mean we are bigger that YG you know." I tried my best to lift up her spirits with my words but I'm actually seething with anger right now at Dispatch for being a sneaky fucker who likes to destroy idol's peaceful lives. My right knuckle has turned white from me balling up my fist too hard.

I hear on the other end of the line small sniffles but I could feel that she has calmed down a bit.

"Rosie, what will I do without you girls? But I can't let you do the things you said if he does kick me out. I don't want to destroy all four dreams. It's enough if it's just me."

"Yah! Stop! I don't want to hear that from you. My dream is to become a successful idol with all three of you and it won't be the same if you're not there. We all dream of the same things and I know your dream is to also succeed as an idol walking hand to hand with the rest of us. No matter what happens we will continue to support and uplift each other. Please don't be too sad, all hope is not yet lost. Let's believe that everything will work out the way we hope it to be."

"I love you Rosie. Thank you for giving me strength. I needed those words."

I whisper more comforting words to her and soon she stopped crying fully and even managed a few weak laughs at my jokes. I sogh at relief, at least she's trying to be okay and not crying. I don't wanna see her like that again.

"Have you told Jisoo?" I ask.

"N-no. I can't do it."

"Do you want me to break the news to the girls?"

"Thank you Rosie." She says.

"I'll do a group call in a bit unnie. I'll hang up now. Remember, we love you and we'll be together every step of the way. Everything is not over until we say it's over. Let's not give up and continue fighting for us. Fighting unnie! I love youuuuu!"

I end the call and return to the living room where everyone was gathered. It was already nearing 2AM so I told them me and Lisa will have a group call with Jennie and Jisoo so we said our good nights to everyone.

We return to my room and we started the group call. I broke down the news to them and they pretty much had the same reaction I had. They were cursing Dispatch and they were also of the same opinion with regards to the future of our group. We comforted Jennie a lot and soon all four of us were laughing. When we became sleepy we said our goodnights and ended the call.

As soon as the call ended I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face.  As I was brushing my teeth, a pair of arms snaked their way into my waist. I was silent and just continued with what I was doing. She waits for me to finish then she speaks up her thoughts.

"Chaeng, what's wrong?" Lisa asks. I turn around and return the hug. We were now facing each other.

"I'm scared and mad and sad. I'm sad because I hate seeing Jennie like this, it breaks my heart. She doesn't deserve any of this. I'm mad because Dispatch fucking sucks and I honestly want to rip them to shreds. I'm scared because everytime a relationship is exposed by Dispatch it always causes a huge stir and I can't help but think what if we're the ones that get caught Lisa. They are not very accepting of same sex relationships and I don't think I'm ready to face a public trial of people judging us and hating us for loving the same gender. I can't imagine the people hating me for loving you and tell us that it's wrong to love you Lisa. Because how can loving you be wrong when it feels so right. Loving you feels like I'm returning home to where I'm supposed to be. I can't lose you Lisa." I told her.

I'm full on crying now. She doesn't say anything but wrap her arms around me a bit tighter, just enough so that we could hear each other's heartbeats that are perfectly in sync. She rubs my back to calm me down and she touches our foreheads together. We stay like that for a while before she opens her mouth to speak.

"You're not ever gonna lose me. I'd be an even bigger idiot than YG if I let go of you, you're my soulmate. I know your scared and to be honest I am scared too. I also thought about the possibility of us getting caught but I've already accepted the possibility of that happening the moment I accepted the fact that I loved you. I'm willing to risk it all for you Chaeng, even if the world ends up hating me I will still remain tall and shout to the world how much I love you. I understand that you aren't ready yet for everyone to know about us so I'll do my best to keep us a secret."

"How do you always know the right words to say?"

"Duh, I'm Lisa. I'm like the epitome of perfection. Don't you know that?"

I ended up laughing at her words and her expression. She was right though, I was also willing to risk it all for her. I just can't help myself to feel scared because I'm human. I hope that one day I'll have the courage to admit to the world about me and her and we'll both be happy regardless of what anyone thinks.

We went to bed and cuddled while whispering sweet nothings to each other until we fell asleep.