"Well do it all.
Everything.
On our own"
-chasing cars by snow patrol
Jordan's P.O.V
Olivia's house seems so much smaller than Baileys. The thought of me just leaving tore my heart into shreds. He lied about everything. His entire life. I lost everything for him. My family most importantly. I thought he was such a great guy. Boy was I wrong. Alex and Olivia have been super supportive the last few days. They knew how much I actually cared for him.
Since Bailey and I got more serious after graduation with me there all the time and what not we all grew apart in a sense. But when I needed them most they were right there. I'm so grateful to have my best friends. Olivia and I have been talking about getting our own place. Her mother hasn't been keen on me staying here. She thinks I'm a bad influence.
"What time do you have to be at work?" Alex asks.
"Ten." I throw my curls up into a messy bun then put on my Marietta's diner tee. I decided on shorts today since the temperatures 92 degrees outside. I can only imagine how the kitchen will feel today.
"You get done at six?" I nod to Olivia's question. "Would you want to go to a party tonight? My man can get us drinks!"
Olivia just started dating this guy named Michael Francis. I've only met him once but he seems like an okay guy.
"You know I don't-" Alex cut me off. "You're not in high school anymore! You need to cut loose for once so you're going!" I smirk in response. I've only drank a few times but I had Bailey there to look after me and the second I started to get a little to much he'd bring me home.
"Fine! But the second I get out of control someone has to bring me home!" They all laugh.
"How was your meal guys?" I ask the older couple at table nine.
"Very good thank you."
"Can I get you anything else?" They shake their heads. I smile lightly and walk back to my station.
"Slow day huh?" I turn quickly and see Zach my coworker. Making a pout for my answer. Zach and I have become close since I've started. He always stuck up for me when the customer give me a hard time.
"I'm ready to leave."
"Big plans tonight?" I tell him about the party at Mike's friends. Quickly I learn that he's friends with mike and also will be attending. It's good to know I'll know someone other than the girls there. Secretly though I think he has the hots for me. To bad for him!
The bell rings and I look up and see the one and only, Bailey Laroe. Unfortunately with us being short a waitress today I have to get him. Will and Lena are also with him. Lena notices me a waves with a huge smile. I've been keeping in touch with her because we always hit it off right from the start.
"That's my cue." I mumble to Zach as I grab menus. Slowly I make my way towards them.
"Welcome to Marietta's can I start you guys out with any drinks?" Their drink order was said and the entire time Bailey wouldn't take his eyes off me.
Why did it have to be like this? Why couldn't he have been the guy I thought he was? Why did it hurt so bad to know he was in front of me and I couldn't do anything about it?
I pictured it all with him. Flash backs of laughter and love filled my mind. The first words he said to me. The coffee. The odds of finding him.
He brought me so much joy and to know I haven't seen or talked to him in a week because I found out he's not the man he said he was tore at my heart strings. I want the Bailey I thought I knew back. I want that man. Not the one he truly is.
Tears swell in my eyes. Quickly I turn away. Zach notices it when I get back to the station.
"Are you okay?"
"Listen I know you don't wait on tables can you please get them their drinks? I need a minute."
Once in the bathroom I shut the door and lock it. The tears started flowing. I can't believe he came here. I just want to jump into his arms. But I knew better. I knew I couldn't. My life is in danger because of him.
I've never fallen before. Never loved another man before. Never expected to experience all of this with a gang leader. How could I have been so naive. I should've looked at him and saw him for what he was.
I'm going to die because if this man.
After I gain composure I leave the bathroom. I automatically look to their table. Gone. Just like that they're gone. Thank god.
"Jordan?" I jump and spin around to see Lena.
"Can we talk for a second?" I nod in response. I clock out for my break and grab a cup of coffee then sit next to her.
"Look Lena, if you're going to beg me to talk to him then I'm going to go."
"Actually, I just need to explain somethings to you. I get that you're mad he lied to you. Trust me I was in your position once. I didn't know will was in it either at first. Until a threat for my life was tossed up."
"Why did you stay?"
"Because I loved him and I knew I was safer if I stayed than if I left because even if we weren't together Rodriguez would've found me. Jordan, Bailey cares about you more than you know. He cried to will. The last time I saw him cry was over his mom. I truly think he loves you Jordan." He loves me? He's never told me that before. He's told me how much he loves spending time with me and loves seeing me but he's never told me he loved me.
My mind goes in spins and my stomach forms knots. Lena's eyes never leave mine as she waits for a response.
"I have to get back to work. I'll see you around."
***
We pull up to a big tan house. The music could be heard from inside the car. My gut twists as if giving me a sign. "I don't know guys maybe this isn't a good idea."
They both roll their eyes and step out of the car. Like a puppy, I follow. My eyes roam around the people in the lawn. I didn't know anyone here from the looks of it.
"You guys better not leave me alone. I'm serious. You know how I get around people I don't know." My social anxiety starts taking my mind over. What if they don't like me? What if the make fun of me?
"You'll be fine after a few drinks you'll loosen up." Alex says.
"Yeah.."
Once in the door the smell of skunk takes over. I smelt it before when Bailey and Will smoked something in front of me. Bailey. I wonder where he is. Or what he's doing. He's probably already moved on. On to the next one.
The girls get drinks but I deny one. I'm not ready yet. I need to warm up first. My eyes linger around. In search of a familiar face.
Out of no where I see one that makes my heart drop. I could pick those eyes out of everyone and of course my eyes had to automatically go to him.
Bailey.
"Fuck it! Get me a drink."
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