Chapter 43

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- Joe's POV -

Sometimes I just feel like a battery. I start out green, full of energy and fine. I go to yellow, and need to take a few breaks. Then I hit red and I need to recharge before I crash. The only times I seem to crash is when I'm drained by Caspar. I could feel myself on red right now.

- flashback -

Joe. Concentrate. Just edit your video now. You have no proof for Caspar. He thinks you're a liar. Don't let it get to you, you don't need him anyways. All you need is YouTube, Joe. You're fine.

I synced my memory card to my laptop, and waited for the files to import. The last video, the one I filmed for my gaming channel was especially large. I hadn't remembered filming for long, so I was a little surprised.

The waiting bar for the clips to import finally finished. I clicked each one, choosing which files to put into the video. When I reached the gaming channel video, in the middle I heard the doorbell ring in the video. I heard Pete and my voice. It was quiet, so I turned up the volume. Yes. YES! It was recording! Our faces weren't in sight, but the voices were enough. Caspar would believe me now!

"I don't care what you want this is my apartment and I'm asking you to leave." I heard my voice in the video yell. Yes. The next part would be about Scott!

The screen went black. The camera must have died during recording right before Doctor Anderson explained things. I shook my head, resisting the urge to slam my fist into the screen.

I tried to calm down. I still have evidence right? I mean, he did confess to me. That's enough proof right? Of course it is.

I had to tell Caspar immediately.

- flashback end -

Frustrated tears sat burning in my eyes. Why couldn't Caspar have listened to me? Or at least watched the video? Caspar wasn't like that. He always listened when he knew it was important. Unless he thought he might be wrong or get hurt finding out the truth. Which means he must really actually care about Doctor Anderson.

It hurt how easily I was replaced. I guess I thought too highly of myself to have expected to hold a place in Caspar's heart.

"I just want Caspar to listen." I said aloud with an obvious sigh. I buried my face in my hands.

"Okay. Okay, Joe I'll listen."

My hands shot down and my face darted up. I wasn't hearing voices again. Caspar stood before me, looked pained and tired.

"On second thought, don't waste your time. I already know the truth. I can see it in your eyes, Joe. Please don't look so sad. You know I can't handle it when you look so weak." He said, shaking his head.

I was speechless. He knew I wasn't lying. He didn't want me to be sad.

My feet walked them self in front of him, and I couldn't stop my arms from reaching around him and bringing him close. I couldn't hold back. I longed for Caspar's closeness. He surprisingly didn't flinch or pull away. His breathing pattern rose and fell in perfect sync with mine.The bottom of his shorts brushed against my legs. Everything about him was glorious.

"Caspar," I whispered into his soft gray shirt, that hugged tightly against his muscle.

His arms tightened around me, I could feel his breath in my hair.

"I missed you. I care about you."

"I care about you too, Caspar."

I felt warm drops of liquid soak into my hair. Caspar was crying. I didn't mind though, I knew I was too.

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