For Boe, the most important thing in her life right now was fulfilling her promise. Those promises meant everything to her. From the moment she first saw him, she made it her mission to bring back his happiness and the person he used to be. She keep...
96-100 will be a compilation of Arena's messages before she died. These are her unsent messages for Fabian, but Alesso sent it to Fabian before he died.
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Hoppla! Dieses Bild entspricht nicht unseren inhaltlichen Richtlinien. Um mit dem Veröffentlichen fortfahren zu können, entferne es bitte oder lade ein anderes Bild hoch.
I was admitted at the hospital again today, after a week, ngayon na lang ulit ako nadala sa hospital. I was about to go down stairs but then I fainted, that's why I had a fracture on my arm as you can see. Many people visited me today, some of my relatives from Cebu even came all the way to Manila just to see me.
It felt nice... knowing that a lot of people cares for you. I'm still sad that I never got the chance to tell about this part of my life to you. I know, you're still mad at me for breaking your heart. I'm sorry that I'm such a coward. I can't just tell you that I'm sick. That I'm dying. I guess it's for the best, because I don't want you to worry about me. You have your own problems to deal with in your life and I don't wanna be one of them. Ayoko nang dumagdag pa sa mga problema mo.
I've been a burden to my family for years and I don't want to do the same with you. Ayokong maging pabigat sa 'yo. Ayokong maging malungkot ka rin sa araw-araw na buhay mo katulad nang nakikita ko sa pamilya ko. Kasi ako 'yung nasasaktan...
That everyday they'd wake up, they're scared. Scared of the possibilities. Scared of the what ifs... because what if today... tonight... I won't wake up anymore? They'll never know.
My life was limited. The doctor said that I only have a month left and it will depend on me on how long I still can live. Ang hirap kapag may taning na ang buhay mo. Naka-depende pa sa 'yo. Ganoon lang pala kadali, Fabian... na kapag ayaw mo nang huminga, pwede ka namang tumigil. Na kapag napapagod na ako, pwede naman na akong matulog at di na magising.
Pero sa araw-araw na gigising ako, sobrang thankful ko kasi... buhay pa rin ako. At sa gabi, natatakot akong matulog kasi hindi ko alam kung gigising pa ba ako... kung kakayanin ko pa... kung masisilayan ko pa ang panibagong araw at mukha ng mga minamahal ko sa buhay.
Takot ako. Natatakot ako.
Pero, Fabian... alam mo ba? Tama ka. Mas nakakatakot nga palang mabuhay. Nakakatakot kasi may mga taong dadating sa buhay mo nang hindi mo inaasahan. Nakakatakot kasi alam mong iiwan mo rin sila. Iiwanan din naman pala kita. Kahit gustuhin mo mang itigil na mahalin siya, hindi mo magawa... ang hirap.
