Confidence (Part 1)

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L had always been a distant person. He always kept his distance from everyone.

This disappointed you to be honest. Since the two of you were in a relationship together, all you wanted to do was spend time with him and make him happy. But because of the way he is, it always seemed like he was pushing you away and you felt awful about it.

You even wanted to progress the relationship with L further, but it didn't seem to be working.

You did like to believe L loved you dearly, but there was a part of you that made you think L didn't want to be around you and it ate you up inside.

It even started to cause you to avoid L sometimes as it scared you so much.
You needed sometime to fix yourself up.

So alone you sat in your bedroom on your bed just taking a moment to breathe to try and relax and get your mind off everything that was happening inside your head.

Meanwhile Misa had noticed you weren't around and went to go find you.

She reached your floor and knocked on the door.

"You in there (Y/N)?" She asked only to get no answer.

"Fine. I'm letting myself in. The doors only lock at night anyway."

The blonde let herself in to only see you weren't in the living room or kitchen.

She sighed.

"What's up with her these days?" She asked herself.

Misa went straight to your room and knocked on your door.

"Hey (Y/N). It's Misa. Let me in!"

She got no response.

"If you don't open the door, I'll come in myself" she replied.

"Whatever" you responded.

Misa walked in to find you sitting curled up on your bed, in the dark, staring into nothingness.

She sat on the edge of the bed and faced you.

"What's up (Y/N)?" She asked. "I've noticed you haven't been acting like yourself lately. You haven't spoken to L a lot either."

You flinched when you heard his name and rested your head in your knees.

Misa tilted her head.

"Are you and L okay?" She asked. "Have the two of you had a fight or something? I can go kick his ass for you if you need me to!" She stood up and was about to walk out the door but you grab her wrist and tell her to stop.

"Sit down..." You whisper to her.

Misa was confused but did as you said and sat back down at the edge of the bed.

"I feel like L's pushing me away a little. He never wants to do anything with me anymore" you say, tearing up.

"Why do you think that?" Misa asked, looking sad.

You sniff a little before continuing.

"I've...wanted to progress our relationship to something...more like, you know...but whenever I try to show affection to L, he never seems to think anything of it. Why do I even bother anymore?" You began crying.

"Aww don't cry (Y/N)!" Misa wraps her arms around you and hugs you tightly.

"I just want to know that L loves me" you whimper. "I want him to show love and affection to me like Light does to you, even if it doesn't mean anything to Light!"

"I know you do (Y/N)..." Misa strokes your hair to comfort you.
"Good job I found you when I did though."

"Huh?" You sit up and look at her, confused.

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