I (Love) hate you [Shigadabi]

Breaking down

Shigaraki [POV]

"What are you doing?" I asked nervously, he didn't respond, there was an intense flame in his eyes that didn't seem like it would die any time soon.  A flame so intense and bright I feared if I got to close I would get burned.  Dabi seemed to have other things in mind because he quickly closed the gap between us pressing his lips against mine.  My eyes widened in surprise.  I was too shocked to do anything and he had my hands pinned above my head his grip crushing my wrists again.  I couldn't do anything, I had gotten weaker and that was apparent.  My heart pounded in my chest my face flushing a deep shade of red.  He stared at me his intense blue eyes the same turquoise color as his flames.  His eyes showed no unusual emotion, no fear, no awkwardness, nothing, just his regular cocky attitude.  After what seemed like an hour of me not being able to do anything he pulled away not letting go of my wrists a smirk fluttering across his lips

"What the [FRICK]" I shouted

"Hm?  You were leaving, I didn't give you permission to leave yet" His response was delayed compared to his normal sarcastic response.  Behind his cocky smirk I could see him trembling but not enough to notice unless you looked closely.  He released my wrists, my arms fell down at my sides.  Was this what I wanted?

"Why'd you do that you could have done anything else or do you just want to rub it in my face that you're much stronger than me now that I've gotten weaker, did you just want to rub that in my face?" I asked talking quickly

Dabi [POV]

[crap] he's starting to freak out, I am too but he's not freaking out because of the kiss anymore

"What are you talking about?" I asked slowly

"You know what I'm talking about you can't say that you haven't noticed when it's so obvious" he started to raise his voice

"Calm down I don't know what you're talking about" I started my heart hammering against me chest.  He started trembling so I took a step back

"Before I could have pushed you away, I could have done something but now I can barely walk normally let alone do something about that" He rambled off, he started scratching at his neck despite the bandages covering his burned skin.  I took his wrist

"You can't keep-"

"Don't touch me" He shouted surprising me, I let go immediately

"Shigaraki I don't understand what's going on, what's happened?" I looked him up and down nervously, he ran his hand underneath his shirt and for a moment I saw how skinny he was like he hasn't eaten anything for months.  I'm sure I would have been able to count every rib

"Shigaraki" I started but trailed off, I didn't know what to say to him if there even was anything to say.  He was starting to scare me and I couldn't do anything

"[Frick] [Frick] [frick]" he mumbled to himself pressing his back against the wall.  He slid down pressing his hands against his ears like he was trying to block something out

"Shigaraki" I started again

"GO AWAY" he shouted loudly, I backed up confused and quite shaken.  He was scratching and tearing at his neck now.  There was a knock at the door and Kurogiri opened the door

"What is going on in here?" He asked

"I don't know" I half shouted fear filling my voice.  Kurogiri looked from me to Shigaraki

"Dabi go out into the bar you need to take a break, go calm yourself down" he instructed, I nodded meekly not even noticing that I was trembling until now.  I walked out of the room slowly I could hear him talking to Shigaraki.  I sat down on the couch running my hands through my hair