Lovestruck [girlxgirl]

Lovestruck [girlxgirl] - Chapter 13

Chapter 13:

            Everything hurts so badly.

            Everytime I move, my muscles ached. Even muscles I didn’t know could hurt were throbbing, screaming in pain. But the worst pain was emanating from in between my legs from when that guy, Kai…I can’t bring myself to say it.

            The memories ripped through my mind for the millionth time: pinning me down onto the cold steel, prison bed, the unwanted kisses trailing down my body, the stale caresses, his musty breath breathing down my neck and finally the rape itself. The memories just wouldn’t stop. Even when he came back for more, when it actually happened in real life, the burning thoughts just wouldn’t fade. It was like my memory just made me want to keep living it over and over and over again and it was destroying me. Kai had said that it was the best, that he was helping me turn normal again. But his lust filled eyes when he stripped me and his loud moans everytime he thrust into me made it quite clear that he was enjoying the act more than he should be. He gained everything from this act while I was rewarded nothing. I was still the same person I was before he walked into my cell; I didn’t become normal again.

            Then again, I’m already normal. There’s nothing wrong with me. Well…besides my sexuality.

            But liking a girl is perfectly normal though right? I mean, I’m not the only homosexual person out there in the world. Liking someone of the same sex is completely healthy; there’s nothing wrong with that!

            And yet, the act of coming out about my relationship with Elena is what screwed my life up more than it already was. Now, it wasn’t just the love of my family that went away. With that one act, I lost everything: the trust of my friends, and the support of my community.

            It didn’t take a genius to realize my coming out was the reason I was sent to jail. They don’t want it to seem that way but I know it is. Many of my random visitors including therapists and doctors said that going to jail was the best solution to cure my ‘illness’, that time away would teach me a lesson to never do the illegal things ever again.

            Then again, since when was loving another person illegal?

            The jingle of keys made me lift my head slowly up. I could see the uniform of a police officer right outside my cell followed by the one and only Kai. The glitter in his eyes were obvious to even my glazed over, dead ones.

            “Hey beautiful,” he cooed as the officer let him into my cell. Normally, I knew what he was up for and I tried to fight back. But now, now all the hope has just been drained; I couldn’t even find the energy to back away from his looming body.

            “One hour,” I could hear the police warn him. “No more,”

            His smile was wicked as his greedy hands reached down to grip my face roughly. “No problem. I can change her by then,”

            The only response was the door slamming and leaving me alone with him.

            “You know the drill,” his voice is deep and laced with lust as he lifts me up onto the bed. I could feel my muscles scream in pain but it was pushed to the side. The new pain would probably numb the old.

            I let out a pained, undetectable sigh as the process begins. I could vaguely hear his chiding, his lecturing towards me about turning normal again past the thundering in my head. Only one thought was in my head now, constantly biting at my conscious.