He chuckles and gives me his own smirk. "No one would believe you anyway."

We actually had a civilized conversation. The memory is so vivid I have to blink a few times before I realize I'm just standing in the middle of Nixon's room naked, while he's passed out in his bed. I grab my clothes from the floor finding everything but my panties, I wouldn't put those back on anyway. Once I'm fully dressed I steal a black beanie from Nixon's huge closet to cover my crazy hair, grab my clutch and get an Uber.

I wait in the lobby by the large glass doors and panic starts to set in all over again.

I had sex.

I had sex for the first time.

I had sex with Nixon Hyze.

I lost my virginity and I don't even remember it. Did he use protection? Oh god, Seth is going to kill me, Kelis too. How many times have I said that I'm never drinking again yet I somehow manage to end up right back here?

My phone beeps with my Uber alert and I rush through the doors. Once I'm back to my dorm I unlock the door and Akina Lee sits on her bed reading as usual.

"You have a fun night?" She asks with a smile.

I nod and slip inside the bathroom. I strip back down and jump in the shower. My tears mix with the hot water, I can't help but scrub my entire body pink like that will remove the hickeys and put my hymen back intact. I don't leave the shower until the water turns cold and sends an array of goose bumps across my flesh. I quickly dry my hair, cover my neck in color corrector and two coats of concealer over the top before setting it with translucent powder. When I exit the bathroom Akina Lee is still nose deep in her book. I get dressed in a fresh pair of panties and a bra. I slip on some black leggings, a white shirt, a long gray cardigan, boots, and a scarf. I transfer all my stuff back into my usual crossbody bag and text Kelis.

To Kelis:
Wanna go shopping?

She replies within seconds.

From Kelis:
Umm am I breathing? Yes! Text me your dorm building

"You want to come to the mall?" I ask Akina Lee as I send Kelis the name of the building.

I honestly hadn't even realized I never told her which building I moved into but I was a little preoccupied.

"Maybe next time, I'm at a really good spot." She says never looking away from her book.

"What's your book called?"

"Broken, it's about a naïve girl who falls heavy into drugs. She loses herself during her freshman year of college and ends up in the center of a love triangle with a player and a bad boy, thankfully one of them saves her. She's kind of dumb and it's a little cliché but the ending knocks you on your ass." She laughs lightly.

"Oh, you've read it before?" I ask in surprise.

I don't think I've ever read the same book more than once.

She nods. "It's my favorite, a little dark but realistic."

I give Akina Lee a wave and go downstairs to wait on Kelis. I know you're wondering what the hell are you doing hanging out with Kelis the day after sleeping with her brother? I don't know what I'm doing, but I can't stay in my dorm all day driving myself to the brink of insanity thinking about it. I mean, yeah, I could ask Nixon but I don't really want to know, if I'm being honest. I'm scared especially with waking up completely naked, covered in hickeys and more sore than I've ever been in my life. I mean it's a little obvious.

Kelis' Black Mercedes stops in front of the doors and I get inside.

"Asking me if I want to go shopping like no would ever be an option." She scoffs.

"I didn't know if you were already doing something." I shrug.

"Coincidently I was going through my closet to make room, I have a bag in my back seat for you."

I laugh. "Like I'm going to fit in your old clothes."

She glares at me. "You're pretty much the same size as me without doing an ounce of working out so shut up. I forgot to tell you, I have a date next weekend so I need a new outfit for that."

My eyebrows shoot up in surprise. "A date, with who?"

"His name is Dean, I met him at the coffee place around the corner one morning. He's pre-med, six two and has dreamy dark brown eyes." She says with a sigh.

"Oh pre-med and six two, sounds like a winner." I joke.

She rolls her eyes and pulls into an empty parking spot at the mall. "Oh please, I'm not going to marry the guy but if I can have an orgasm or two from Dean the future doctor then that's a win in my book. Speaking of dates, why haven't you and Seth been on one yet?"

I freeze at her question. Well I'm pretty sure when Seth finds out I slept with his best friend only 48 hours after waking up in his bed and kissing him goodbye before I left to see the Dean, that a date will no longer even be an option.

I mean he really can't be mad at me since we weren't dating or exclusive or anything and he's been having sex with other girls too. It's not like he's a freaking monk. Why do I feel so freaking guilty though? My stomach is in knots, my chest aches. I hate this.

"Ryan." Kelis says snapping her fingers, effectively pulling me from my thoughts.

The car is off and we're parked. "Sorry, I was just thinking. Seth hasn't asked me out on a date."

She taps her full lips for a minute and hums. "Well, I guess I'll be having a little talk with our friend Seth."

Kelis slips out of the door, closing it behind her before I can even open my mouth. I follow get out and follow her.

"Don't say anything Kelis." I say.

She shrugs. "Maybe he just needs a little push, I mean have you told him you like him?"

"Well we make out every day so I'm pretty sure he knows."

She shakes her head. "No, he's a guy, you're going to have to literally tell him so he really knows."

I've literally seen his dick, I'm one hundred percent sure he knows the feelings are mutual.

"Fine, I'll tell him." I sigh.

She claps her hands and links her arm through mine. "Yay, I love when I win! Now let's go spend all of my Father's money!"

Yeah, I'm not telling Seth anything, especially after last night.


Hey babe's, double update as requested.

Sorry Team Seth 🤭🍒

What did you guys think about the little glimpse of vulnerable Nixon? 🤔

Is Nixon actually a good guy underneath all of his layers or is he just an asshole that has random moments of kindness?

Are you still on the same team as before or?🤔

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Team Nixon


Team Ryan

Let me know your thoughts/ theories after this chapter!

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