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India

Today is one of those days I'm not getting out of bed.

I'm not answering my phone, and I don't wanna be bothered. I'm not even leaving the house.

"Want something from the store?" Lauren asked, standing at my doorway.

I thought for a second, "Unless you can find some pills to fix this depressing mess I have going on, then no." I said

She sighed, "What's wrong, now?" She asked

"The same thing that has been wrong since weeks ago, but I know you don't wanna hear about it— you've been listening for weeks. I'm fine." I said and rolled over.

"It's not that I don't wanna hear about it, I prefer for you to speak on it than for you to be here left alone sulking in depression, then I come back and you're seconds away from not being able to be resuscitated because you've drowned yourself in the tub." She explained

I turned over, facing her.

"You thought about this before, haven't you?" I asked

"Yeah. Too many times, actually. So, talk to me, I wanna make sure you're okay." She said

I sighed, "I'm fine, really. It's nothing new for me to talk about. I've talked about it so long even I've grew tired of hearing it."

"So, have you made up your mind what you're going to do with the baby?" She asked

I stared into space for a second, "After talking to my mom, she did help me decide what to do. She told me don't let his absence determine the future of my child or me, for that matter." I said

"So what did you decide?"

"I'm going to keep it." I sighed

She let out a huge sigh of relief, "I was hoping you would!" She said then ran towards me to give me a hug.

I chuckled, "Get off of me." I said and nudged her.

"I'm so excited!" She exclaimed

"I can tell. But, I still don't want you to tell anyone. Only people that know are you, my mother and Chris." I said

"And, Dre." She added

"Dre? When the hell did he know?" I asked

"I maybe sometimes vent and ended up blurting it out, so I was mad when I told him, my bad." She said

"It's okay." I smiled

"Now that we've gotten that figured out, we just need stupid number 1 to come around..." she paused

"Who's stupid 2?" I chuckled

"His bitch ass mama is 2 and Sabrina is 3. But, speaking of Chris- I have something to tell you." She said

I hate when people tell me that. I don't know how to properly brace myself or anything.

I slightly adjusted myself in my bed, "What is it?" I asked

"When I was over Dre's house last week, Chris stopped by." She started

"Mm.." I said, as if I didn't care, although I was dying to know what was said and talked about.

"He looks bad, Indy. He lost weight, paler, haven't gotten a haircut in years it seems, he just looks like he's going through it." She said

Wow. I know this isn't all because of me, because if it was he would've been tried to fix it.

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